was browsing fb on my iphone when i got a notification that i had a message..

went in and saw this msg:


first he ask a random girl to sms him to tell him abt her.. and not ask her to reply his fb..

then he said he did not have a comp at home, he was using office comp..

which well, is one in a million chance of a person not having a comp at home..

then, i went to click on his profile (obviously kapoh) and saw this:


so he is attached.. yet he go msg girls with such things.. i bet he didn't just msg me but a whole bunch of others too..

and then.. i went to click on his gf's profile and guess what i saw? a weird status update:


so based on my assumption, his gf's status was about the bf.. and my guess is, this guy changed his password so that he can go around msging girls without the worry of getting found out by the gf..

what an asshole.

this is what pissed me off. usually, i would jus click on the profile, browse through to satisfy my curiosity and that's it, end of story.

(nope, i NEVER reply to such msgs in fb)

but this guy's behaviour turned me off. he is obviously cheating on his gf.

some may argue saying, it's jus a msg. well, for me, it's cheating, one way or another. if any of the girls replied him and flirted with him, it's only a matter of time before he two/three-time his gf.

fucker.

*rolleyes*

i actually had the thought of msging his gf but decided against it. i don't want to be responsible for their breakup.

so be careful if your partner refuses to let you have his/her pw. something is not right.

i am very into cameras.. and since last year, i fell in love with toy cameras and polariods.. love them to bits..

alot of people wanna buy DSLRs.. for their high resolutions and quality.. for me, i love the randomness of toy cameras, the vintage touch they have on photos.. and the familiar feeling of buying films and developing them..

when i first stepped into the shop, i was immediately attracted to the cameras displayed.. and since then, i had been buying a camera almost once every 2 months or so..

however, people who knows me well, knows that i like limited edition stuff.. and thus, i have been looking for limited edition cameras..

or in some color that isn't that common.. haha..

i am trying to set up a photo blog for my camera buys (which is similar to my fb album of Camera Buys ♥ )

and maybe photos taken by the various cameras i have.. :D

i am too busy though, no time to even blog.. thus, its gonna be a long wait for my photo blog to be up..

anyway, let me list out the cameras i have now from the very first.........................

Instax Mini 7s - white (limited edition) ♥
got it with cherrie's help when she went to Japan..

GoldenHalf - Red trees (limited edition) ♥
bought it in Singapore.. wanted to get the original for this cos i like the design but it was out of stock.. but this is just as pretty..

photo taken by golden half..

BlackBirdFly - Last Decade (Limited edition) ♥
bought it in Singapore.. wanted to get orange but fell in love with this hot pink edition instead..

this is how the photo will look like.. :D

anyway, i intend to buy the full series of this cameras.. all the different colors.. ♥

Gakkenflex ♥
i happened to go to the shop to browse for camera bags i think and saw this camera..



its in a box like this:


and what i had to do is to put all the parts together and ta da! my toy camera is done! damn vintage and a great sense of satisfaction! ♥

Polaroid One Step Land Camera x 2 ♥
this was a gift from Rach's bf's mum when I went to visit them in Melbourne last November.. It was such a pleasant surprise.. his mum was a camera fan too.. polariod fan to be exact and she loves taking pics..

cant forget how her eyes lit up when she saw my collection of cameras then.. :D

Instax Mini 25 Cheki Hello Kitty Camera ♥
latest buy.. with help of another friend who went to Japan last month.. I had other cameras for her to help me buy but she only managed to find this cos the other was very difficult to find.. well, i will probably buy that in Singapore then..

anyway, i am not a fan of Hello Kitty but I like the colour mix of white and red for this camera.. they have a white color edition but I already had one white polariod camera so its kinda pointless to get another full white instax camera..

but i love white.. haha.. and when i saw this edition, i fell in love with it (of cos, i would prefer if they had Mickey Mouse edition!).. and decided to get this together with its Hello Kitty films.. lol

with Hello Kitty films.. both Instax Mini 7s and 25 will have photos in this size.. =D

well, this are the cameras i had so far.. i still have a lot more on my wishlist which i will get it sooner or later! :D

only pity is i have been so busy, i din have time to full utilize my cameras.. gotta find time soon!

sometimes i wonder.. do years really mean anything?

does a person who you have known for 5 years better than a friend you have known for 5 months?

these days, i have seen and heard of people being "betrayed" by their friends, long years of friendships, more than a decade.

disappointments, anger, disgust.. most of all, self-reprimanding..

they felt confused, lost.. why did they once trust those friends so deeply?

why is it that those friends weren't the friends he/she knew a decade ago?


was it his/her fault?


nope. it's not.

this is life.

people change. change is the only constant.

and with the change of environment, people around, it's not that hard to change.


a person's real personality may not surface for the first 20 years of his/her life due to family, school, education..

but once a person goes to work, starts going out, explore, more temptations and 'tests' will show a person's true character, be it good or bad.


as one grows older, he/she will experience more feelings, negative feelings mostly.

jealousy, hatred, dislike etc..

in turn, this may turn a nice and kind person into a jealous and scheming asshole.


can we really blame them for being who and what they are?


maybe to them, we are flawed too cos in their eyes, what they do is right and justifiable.

not everyone views friendship in the same way.


some people view friendships as rare jewels, some treat them as tools, others view them as dispensable objects..


everyone is different.


at least, you get to know that they aren't the type of friends you wanna be with now..

its definitely better than knowing that in like another 20-30 years' time isn't it? =)


or maybe, the end of a friendship will allow the other party to realise your importance?

it may also starts a new life separately, a more fulfiling life that you never had when with the old bunch of friends?


these are all the positive thoughts that one can have when meet with such .. experience..



and always remember, even though the friendship ended, the person might not be who you thought was, this person or this group of people had brought you joy once, and that's all you need to remember..


everyone has a book of memories.. you wouldnt want to fill them up with bad chapters, burnt edges or smudged pages all the time would you? =)


so to my friends who are going through the loss of a long term friendship, don't blame yourself or the other party..

it's life.

without the downs, you won't appreciate the ups.

without this end, you may never get to appreciate the start. =)

"Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of others. Be original."

always rem that because it's always better to be hated for what you are than loved for what you aren't. =)

ps: jus a random post of mine~

People always say, "Words mean nothing with no actions to prove them .."

But there's also saying that "Words hurt as much, if not more than, actions.."

Both true to me.

In fact, I believe the second saying is the effect of the first.. Because the first saying, people have the mindset that words can't hurt.. And therefore, become insensitive to what they say.. Underestimate the power of words.. 

No matter how much you try, you get affected by words.. It's the words that affect your mood, your confidence.. 

Words kill.. Look at the numbers of death due to words.. Chinese has this saying, "人言可畏 " 

Words can hurt, it can kill a person, literally at times.. 

Just as words can heal a person.. Boost one's confidence.. 

Don underestimate the power of words my dear..

Use them to heal, not hurt.. 

你相信真愛嗎？

saw this on a website:


What is Love?

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

-St. Augustine, movie "Captain Corelli's Mandolin"

do you agree? =)

Today I got 2 donation booklets from my ex-colleague cum friend. It is donation booklets for Children Charities Association of Singapore (CCA).

Proceeds will go to:
1. The Association for Persons with Special Needs,

2. Movement for the Intellectually Disabled of Singapore,

3. St Andrew's Mission Hospital,

4. Singapore Association for the Deaf,

5. Singapore Children's Society,

6. Spastic Children's Association of Singapore.


When I asked for 2 booklets, I was thinking to myself,”well, these days not many people want to donate money, so it’s gonna be tough selling.” So I only took 2 booklets, 20 tickets in total.

When I started asking my colleagues to buy the tickets, I was expecting to sell only 1 book and I was going to buy the 2nd booklet. To my surprise, my colleagues each bought at least 2 tickets, and 3 of them actually bought 3 booklets (1 booklet each)!

I was very touched, seriously. They bought it so readily; they did not even ask if there’s lucky draw or when’s the event etc which most public would ask. They merely ask, “donation for? “ after I replied, they just said. “okay! One book for me! “

It’s that simple.

With all the scams and hoo-haa of various big charities, Singaporeans are getting very sceptical about donating, even if it’s only $2 each.

However, there are still a group of people who still wish to help the needy in the country, still believes there are genuine associations/organisations in Singapore that are helping those in need.

I am much more positive now and hope more people will regain their confidence in charity and donate generously cos ultimately, when we get stingy with our donations, it ain’t those CEOs or Directors who suffer, but those who are depending on these associations to survive through every day needs.

The directors or management level would still be paid a comfortable sum of money every month while those who really need help, such as medical bills, dialysis machines etc, would be crying and worrying about the next day, cos we public had lost hope and stop donating.

So please people, be kind! donate! =)

* CCA will be having their annual fun-fair event around November this year to help raise funds for the needy children. Do stay tune for updates! =)

a gf asked about my ex bf.. and pics..

as i was showing her his pics.. i felt sad.. tears threaten to fill my eyes.. i stopped it..

nope, i am no longer in love with him, so is he.. we are purely friends (if not accquaintances)..


for those who do not know me, this past relationship was a fulfiling one.. he was a very nice person and was true to me through out the relationship..

but it ended eventually.. with no one's fault.. sometimes, love just ain't enough..


maybe i was feeling melachony.. maybe too much memories came back to me..

it's not the kind of sad that you lost someone you love.. its not longer the same sadness i felt when he broke up with me..

it was a sense of pity..

we were so close to starting a new life together.. but we didn't..

and this relationship taught me alot of things.. really alot.. and though it ended, i have no regrets..

i'm glad i have the memories..

he has found a better half.. a person more suitable than i am.. and i give him my blessings..


a friend had said, when the time comes, you will be able to let go..

you will know when its time to let go..

till then, no words of advice will be able to change your mind..


how true is that?

those who had been through failed relationships..

failed relationships which were supposed to work.. or at least, it seemed to work..

do you agree?

that your heart will know when it's time to let go?


if your heart knows when it is time to let go, will it know when it's time to tie the knot? when you meet the right person, will your heart let you know?


i must admit, i do not have an answer to that.

so.. do you have an answer for me?

往往, 你認為最了解你的人就是在你最需要了解的時候第一位誤會你的人~

人生就只這樣.. 當你越在乎一個人, 越信任一個人, 你就會對他有更高的期望..

而往往, 你會因此更失望..

反而, 當你對一個人沒期望時, 你不會有任何失望..

人應該有期望呢, 還是避免失望?

我也不知道.. 你呢?

disappointments can push a person into giving up..

appreciations can push a person into a much better man..

anger can push a person into doing something drastic like killing etc..

heartbreaks can push a person into commiting suicide or kill another person..

love can push a person into doing sth that he/she wasnt confident of before..


that's how powerful feelings can be..

emotions.. these are unexplanable things in life that can control a person's mind and actions..


how many times have we seen on papers or witness situations that are pushed by emotions?

stupid things.. touching moments..


some people says emotions are nothing compared to minds..

but how true is that?

one should be rational...

but if a person is rational all the time, wouldnt he be a walking corpse?

of cos, a person cant be irrational all the time, he/she would be crazed!


what i am saying is a person needs emotions to be really living..

some people are so indifferent to everything, they are like walking corpses..

deep inside, more often than not, they are afraid to reveal that "weak" side of theirs..

thinking that showing emotions make them vulnerable..


and therefore, they built a wall around them.. to prevent them from being vulnerable..

and those who try to go in will be blocked by the wall, which is filled with thorns..

after awhile, no one will try to go near it..

and it become a fortress with only one man livining in it..


they feel lonely.. but their belief prevented them from opening a small window out of that tall wall..


if they are lucky, one day, a person will come along with weapons strong enough to destroy that wall and make it a beautiful castle with wonderful memories..


if not, they will grow to be grumpy old men and women..

which we see at times, at work..


we see 2 types of people:

the cynical person who is indifferent to everything n hates anything that involves feeling..

and the emotional nutcase who is always so dramatic over little things and crying over almost anything..


which one do you rather have in your life? be it work or personal?

the walking corpse or the drama king/queen?


i personally prefer the former.. at least i can just ignore him and argue with him when he gets irritating..

but the latter? he/she may jus threaten to die and spread vicious rumors about you ignoring him/her, break his heart etc..

at least the former would be too indifferent to bother doing that childish stuff!




how about you?

what kind of persons do you have in your life?

is it time for you to do sth about those irritants? =)

some people may think that i am always emo.. due to the way i design my blog.. the songs i put.. the words i write..

well.. i am not..

i like to design blogs in a more.. hmmm.. alright.. emo way not because i am very emo.. but because such designs show your feelings..

its actually harder to design happy layouts (for me) and it hinders my writing..

my blog is mostly about thoughts.. deep thoughts..

i don usually blog about my daily life.. what i have bought today.. what i have eaten.. blah blah blah..

so.. such so-called emo layouts allow me to open my heart and blog what my thoughts are churning out..



just like i only blog when its late at night and i am alone..

cos thats when you are most relaxed.. your mind aren't disturbed by the television, traffic, work..

this is the time where you can sit down, and start thinking about.. everything in life.. =)



a friend msg me in fb the other day saying that she loved my blog.. love the way i write my blog.. my thoughts.. the words i use..

i am truely flattered..

surprised that there's still people who read my entries considering i don't update as much as before due to my heavy schedule..

in any case.. she made me write again.. i put in effort to blog again..

and not to let my thoughts wander and get lost on the way..

so thank you my friend, for that fb msg.. =)



i went up to esplanade roof top the other day.. and that was years since the last time i went up..

the feeling was different jus as the landscape was different..

it was.. empty then.. no bar/restaurant.. no artifical garden.. it was jus.. a plain roof top..

but it attracted lots of couples.. like it does now..

i look at the stage downstairs and memories came..

i was once in front of that stage.. with a boy.. a boy who took my heart away for the first time.. a boy i tot was the one.. a boy who i tot i can love forever..

a boy.. who broke my heart again n again till i couldnt believe in love anymore..

we held hands in front of the stage..

we held hands on the roof top..

we took photos..

i was smiling so sweetly that my eyes were visible..

that's simple happiness.. naive, innocent girl who believed she found her prince charming..


years later.. the girl stood at the same place.. without that smile.. that simple happiness..

now replaced is a bitter smile.. smiling at the memories she had as a young adult..

smiling at all the naive thoughts, all the ignorance, all the .. simplicity..



that's the down side of growing up.. you lose that simplicity.. whether you like it or not..

there's an amour in you.. that you use to protect yourself.. to guard from exposing too much of your inner self..

guard against heartbreak..


some say take the risk! life's too short for guarding!

some say, have a safe journey.. life's already tough as it is..


which one do you agree upon?





i am the latter trying to be the former.. you?

i like watching movies.. in the cinema.. it doesnt really matter if i can fully understand what was the movie going on.. or if i can hear all the words that are being said.. jus by being in there helps me escape.. the reality..

not to say that reality sucks (though it usually does).. just that it helps me to forget about the stress at work, the responsibilities, the anger, sadness, happiness of my own.. and most imptly, who i am..

for that 2 hours, i would be into another person's life.. another character.. experiencing a different life than my own..

which is good..

i am an escapist, some may say.. and i won't deny..

why do one has to always be forced to face the reality every second of the life?

there's 365 days in a year.. why do we have to be in the real life more than half the time?

as you grow older, there's less things that can satisfy you.. its a fact..

the more you know, the more you want..

jus like buying branded goods.. some say, once you start, you wont stop..

from one bag, to another, and another and on and on..

its like an addiction.. cos the more you know, the more you want..

that's life, that's human, that's us..

shrugs..



but at the same time, the more you know, the more you don't want..

ironic?

not so..

it depends on what are the knowledge you gain..

and thus, the decision you make to want or not..



the things you know affects alot on your decision later on.. you have to admit that..

which is why sometimes, people rather not know..

ignorance is bliss..

this quote doesn't come without a reason..


how many times in life did you regret knowing something?

how many times were you glad that you did?


in the end, do you prefer a life not knowing things or do you wish that you had known more?

for me, i prefer the latter..

how about you?

was looking through blogs from my list.. and saw this entry:

小樂發覺到——

每當發生會令你非常開心的事時；
你最想要第一時間告訴的[人]；

也就是；

每當發生會令你不高興的事時；
最不想告訴的同樣一個[人]~

got me thinking.. is this common? are we mostly like that?

likes to share your happiness with that particular someone but do not wish to let him/her in for any unhappy things?

why?

to protect the person?

to never want the person to be unhappy?

to always see the person smiling?


but if you are the person, would you rather your loved one share only the happy stuff with you or would you want to share his/her burdens too?

i don't know about others..

but i would want to share everything with the person.. tears n laughters.. everything..

and i would want to be the person he comes to for everything..


maybe that's the way that i can feel that i mean something to him.. impt enough to be let in the sad stuff..

when you love someone, it gives you the strength to be strong enough to wipe the tears and share the burden..

love isn't weak.. its strong..

at least mine is.. =)

its the start of a new year, end of an old year..

its time for ppl to write about reflections and new goals, new hopes..

then i went to click on my december entries in the past 2 years, 2008 and 2007..

a roller coaster of emotions.. a roller coaster of emotions..

i smiled, then my heart ached and tears threatened to fall..

am i sad? i'm not sure..

am i happy? nope..

am i disappointed? i guess so..

in what? i am not sure either..


i looked at my 2008 entry and i saw this:

in 4 days' time, we will be celebrating the end of this year and welcoming the beginning of next year..

as i think back this year, alot of things changed.. for the better or worse? thats up to individual..

for me, i feel that all in all, it was for the better..

i believe everything happens for a reason.. when a door is closed, another will open in no time.. =)

alot of tears flowed this year, just as alot of laughter was heard..

i have grown up alot this year..

closed up alot, but opened up alot too..

learned to be more realistic..

learned to be more contented..

as for next year, i am keeping my hopes that it will be better, but i have learnt to always leave room for disappointment..

cos with high hopes, come with great disappointment..

this is just how life works..

how about yours?

have you reflected on your past year and plans for next year? =)

and this is what i hope for this year too..

be even more contented.. even more realistic.. hopes for better but not to hope too much..

last year this time, i thought my previous year were a roller coaster with so many things changing..

this year this time, i looked back and there's even more changes.. huge changes..

and last year, i had grown up a lot..

this year, i have grown up even more..



when i looked at the photos in 2007..how i spent my christmas.. and then in 2008, how i spent it..

and then this year..

huge differences..

and i realised.. my smiles changed.. alot..

i remembered how a person had told me that my smiles told alot of stories.. how my smiles werent happy smiles..

i din really see it then..

now i do..

i look at my photos.. it was different.. the happiest smiles kinda stopped in 2007..



why?

it has nth to do with anyone.. its just me.. the growing process.. make one forget how to appreciate small things..

how to believe in happiness.. simple happiness..

now everytime i smile or laugh happily.. at the back of my mind.. i am prepared for unhappiness later on..

skeptical? maybe. cynical? most probably.



i lost a lot this year.. but its a blessing in disguise i suppose..

i gained alot too.. i finally get to see who are true and who aren't..

every year is like that i guess..

you lose more n more pple and then at the same time, your life gets simpler and simpler (in a way)..

i also nearly lost a bit.. but i got back.. to the disappointment of some and gladness of others.. =)



i remembered feeling that way few years back, when i got back from aussie and got attached..

i remembered losing alot but gained alot too.. my life got simpler and more complicated at the same time..

and it was a blessing in disguise..

i wouldnt say those were bad years cos i enjoyed it.. with my then bf of cos.. =)

i learnt to be loved.. i learnt to be pampered.. i learnt to talk to solve things instead of screaming..

i learnt to compromise..

and then.. in 2009..

i learnt not to compromise.. i learnt to love.. i learnt to pamper.. i learnt that talking may not solve things..

i learnt to accept..

and i learnt that.. your heart can ache so much that you wish to stab it with a knife..


i also learnt that.. friends.. come and go..

those who are always with you may not be those who really understand you or love you the most..

i learnt to use my heart to look but my brain to judge..



i went back to aussie in 2009 with my trusted friend.. and the feeling was very different.. everything had changed..

the stores.. the people.. the routes.. the feelings.. everything changed..

as much as you hope to find back the old feelings.. it's gone.. and you can never get it back..

memories are the only thing that stay..

and i have learnt that in order to move on, one needs to learn to accept and forget about the past..

dont hold on to it..

accept the past and don't look back.. don go dig back old stuffs.. old queries.. old doubts..

it doesnt change things.. it only stir up unnecessary emotions.. which is not worth..




i realised i always look back.. and sometimes, i forget to turn back and look in front.. i get pulled into the past and i din wish to come back to the present..

and this year.. i hope i will learn not to look back so much and well, learn to concentrate on the front.. just like driving.. =)



i've come to understand myself better.. i've learnt that i am not as strong as i seem..

i realised that i have lost the confidence that i used to have..

whose fault?

i am not sure.

the self-confidence that i used to have.. that made me strong.. and pull me thru everything lost me this year..

and i fell badly.. real bad..

but in the mist of it.. i found pillars.. i found support.. thru comforting words.. thru assuring hugs.. to firm reprimanding.. thru silence.. they were there.. and i am glad.. =)



i also learnt that i am a much more forgiving person than i thought i was.. but at the same time, i am not as soft hearted as before..


good or bad? i guess i will know at the end of 2010.


i predict more changes to come this year.. and it may or may not be good..

am i prepared? yes.

will i be able to handle it? i am not sure.

but what i am sure is, when i cant handle.. there'll always be someone there to support me..

and i am glad. =)

thank you whoever the person may be at that point of time.

thank you.



well.. that's my reflections for 2009. a year of massive changes. a roller coaster of emotions. cry when i am happy and laugh when i am sad. crazy.

how about yours? =)

As my friend and I were chatting over msn (since both of us gotta work till 10pm on New year's Eve) .. He saw my display pic (below) and said:

Vidzy @ work says (8:53 PM):
*wah
ur dimples so deep
*haha no wonder wun get drunk whaha
s¡ııy åиgеıå says (8:54 PM):
*?
*what
does it gotta do with my dimples?
Vidzy @
work says (8:55 PM):
*u dunno wat dimples is called in chinese?
*酒窝
s¡ııy åиgеıå says (8:56
PM):
*yea
*i noe
*but what does my not getting drunk gotta
do with my dinples?
Vidzy @ work says
(8:57 PM):
*haha u have deep dimples ma!
*the belief is that
deeper the dimples, the more one can drink haha
s¡ııy åиgеıå says (8:57 PM):
*serious?
s¡ııy åиgеıå says (8:58 PM):
*i have never heard of
such belief
Vidzy @ work says (8:59
PM):
*haha now u do
*but how accurate i dunno

hmmm..i really never heard of such beliefs.. have you? lol

today i had an interesting qns being asked by a colleague..

"how do you know that's love? the feeling?"

its like what i had asked my friend, "how do you know he's the one?"

and as the answer always is..

"i don't know. it just feel right.."

and it's true..

there's no explanation.. no way to describe.. no way to test or confirm if that's real love.. if that's the right person for you..

you just know it..

when you are alone.. he/she is the one that comes to your mind.. all the time..

you close your eyes and imagine 5 years later.. 10 years later.. 50 years later.. and there he/she is.. right beside you.. and you smile (or got a shock for some)..

some may argue that it might just be an illusion.. but.. ain't all love illusions? that may last for life?

aren't all of us looking for that particular illusion that may.. become the reality for us?



there's always a risk of the bubble bursting..

you may end up with nothing.. you may end up with everything.. who knows?

life is unpredictable..

sometimes, some things seems so bleak.. may end up completely different from what you had expected..



some says, they never fall deep in love.. they never want to get married..

yet.. more often than not.. they fall when they least expected it and the thought of living without that person scares them more than they getting married..

ta da.. they knew that's love.. that's the one..



who can teach you? some things can't be taught.. some things can't be explained..

like supernaturals in life, love is unexplainable by science and theories..

that's why its so special.. only a handful in the world will experience it..



those who experience it swear it exists and those who didn't will never believe in it..

(till they met the one who can change their minds.. )



love can make or break a person..



are you broken or remade?

Living is a chore .. I'm tired of it ..

眼淚成詩
孫燕姿


我已經已經把我傷口化作玫瑰
我的淚水已經變成雨水早已輪迴
我已經已經把對白留成了永遠
忘了天色究竟是黑是灰

分手傷了誰誰把它變美
我的眼淚寫成了詩已無所謂
讓你再回味字不醉人人自醉
因為回憶總是美

我已經已經把絕情變成了恭維
因為不配你就忽然自卑說聲失陪
我已經已經把沉默變成了懺悔
無路可退只能無言以對

so near yet so far ..