today is my best friend's birthday..

we celebrated for 2 nights with her..

on friday, we went to Taboo, a gay club at new road.. it was well.. new experience.. poor francis was the centre of attention.. gays jus love him soooo much.. =P



damn, we forgot to take pic of his face when he was standing there, rigid, afraid of making a single move, dancing only within that little imaginary box he had created for himself.. xD




anyway, i don't think i will be going back there due to the boss.. he love only guys, enough said.



as for saturday, we had a surprise surprise surprise planned for her.. *evil grins*

this is the first time i had planned such thing and i am happy of the outcome.. really..

so this was what happened:

we had dinner at MOF @ bugis junction..

then we went to starbucks and slack..


at 1130pm.. we went to the taxi stand.. by then, joy was nervous cos she did not know what i had planned for her..

we put earphones into her ears and blasted music..


when the cab was coming, we blind folded her.. *evil grins*


i whispered the destination to the cab driver before letting her into the cab..

in the cab..

she waited and speculated..


waited and waited while icy and gary was trying hard not to laugh..


finally, we reached the destination..

joy was having a hard time balancing..


i was way ahead as i need to make sure everything was done up nicely..

we reached the level..


she waiting outside, a bit impatient..


while i was busy taking pics of the decorations..







READY?


and we took off the mask!

*shocked*


tears of joy.. =D

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to joycelyn, happy birthday to you!"



make a wish! (still wiping tears)



blow the candles!



hugs from friends and her bf..

cutting of cake..


kiss for the bf..


receiving of presents..




group pic


the helpers



the ultimate birthday surprise - SUCCESS! =D

my best friend wanted to pass me something the other day..

she put it into an envelope, sealed it, bolded my name in front of the envelope and dropped it in my mailbox..

everything was good till she told me that she did not remove the envelope header..

that got me rushing home to be the first to get the mail..

but i was too late, as i feared, my mum got it.

when i got home, she said that there were mail for me.

with a suspicious look, pointing to the envelope that my best friend gave me.

and this is why:

top of the header wrote: anthony's baby & child clinic




=.=

Carnival & Heartstrings Walk
A charity event from National Council of Social Services



do come by and visit if you are free tomorrow!

help out for charity!

I will be at stall E39 (The Singapore Association for the Deaf)!

Got this from Izzat's blog. Interesting. =)

link: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

took an emotional ride home from work..


i always hope.. hope for sweet/pleasant/good surprises..

but deep in my heart, i know surprises don't really happen in real life..

yet, i could never stop hoping..

hoping that someone will appear at my workplace with flowers to cheer up my life..

special delivery of gifts or food with simple notes of concern..

appearance at doorstep with a hug to tell me i am being missed/loved/everything will be ok..

i am not talking about romantic person, it can be a friend too..



when i was really tired or stressed, the thought will come into my mind,

"maybe someone will appear with something to cheer me up"

or

"maybe there will be a sweet note on my msn from him or her saying that i am being missed/loved"..

which of cos, it didnt happen..

and the disappointment would sometimes be so overwhelming, tears threaten to fall..

i am not a drama freak (i am emotional, but not dramatic)..

just that, when things go wrong and you had no one to tell with all the stress or unhappiness bottled up to the brim, a small matter will trigger the tears..

sometimes, you just want someone who will just listen and understand what you are trying to say, the emotions you have, the reason behind all your talk, your saddness..

but its hard to find.. its really hard..

your wish may be the simplest of all but its always the hardest to fulfil..

how ironic..



i have been told that i am an extreme thinker but i beg to differ..

i din used to be like this..

i used to be positive and happy..

till numerous experiences changed those thoughts..


how not to feel extreme when you are disappointed time and time again?

everytime you tell yourself to be hopeful, you only end up being disappointed..

by the same person, by a different person, they are all humans..

humans who you thought will be similar to you but in reality, they are very different from you..



i like solitude but i realised, i like having someone by my side too, even without words exchanged..

sometimes, lots of words are exchanged but nothing understood and when nothing is said, all is understood..

funny how human minds work..




well anyway, i will be meeting my bff for ktv on wed so i am looking forward to it! the best way for girl bonding and relieving stress.. =)

till then, i shall bury myself in work.. =.=

ciao pple!



PS: i miss rachel tit so much!!!

received this bumper sticker from joy in facebook:


how true is that?

my msn address has always been confidential, means its different from all the email addresses i have for friendster etc etc etc.

thus, people will not have my msn unless i know them.

jus now, i had someone by the email add of alisonbuputput@hotmail.com trying to add me on msn..

instinctively, i thought this person might be someone i know in the past or sth.. and alison is a girl's name.. thus, i approved..

and this is what happened:

alison: Hi
me: do i know you?
alison: A/S/L? :)


i immediately blocked and deleted this crazy person from my list.

i never entertain such nonsense.



the most disturbing thing is the display pic..

i do not even know if its a girl or guy!


disgusting, disgusting, disgusting !!!!

i do not know how this person got my msn address, either some fucker give him/her or he/she added people randomly with random email address he/she can come up with..

yucks!

ruined my peaceful and innocent afternoon. *rolleyes*

Saturday was a crazy night.. a night that.. well, was unexpectedly dramatic..

it was a female-female bonding through out..



first, i went for a concert performance with mum in the late afternoon before going for dinner and shopping (my mum shopped, i followed)..

the concert was good, the sound systems, the singers, the songs sang..

its a bunch of 80s - 90s singers' performace, quite a number of songs sang were familiar to me..

darn, i AM old! =(

anyway, it was all good.. been quite some time since i had spent time with my mum..

next, i met joy for drinking..

we had thought of clubbing later in the night but we didn't managed to do that..

we were stuck at BQ all the way..

we had table reserved for us at SB.. and ken was at Waiting Bar (which is known as Mansion now)..

it was their re-opening celebration or sth..



then i went to O Point with Ken to look for Rachel and gang..

by then, we had finish our first bottle of Martell and into our second..

Joy was stuck at SB all the way.. when i went back to SB, the 2nd bottle was half gone..


it wasn't even midnight!

oh, we reached at 11pm.. lol..


time passed darn fast.. the next time i looked at my watch, it was 4plus in the morning.. =.=


well.. we definitely had fun that night, drinking and playing games, drinking and singing..

i do not know how much we drank, just that we had alcohol smell on us all through the next day.. =X

well.. its been sometime since we both had met and went out together, just two of us.. so its understandable.. haha..


well, dramas will be kept among those who are involved that night..

all was good though.. good overall..

but i still prefer non-alcohol nights.. clubbing will be good.. lol..

there should be quite a few clubbing celebrations in the next few months to come.. *grins*

well.. no more alcohol for this week.. gotta be a good girl and stay at home.. =)

what is it in life that you want?

have you achieved the goals you had set for yourself 2 years ago?

are you even halfway there or are you still in the same spot, same crossroad, not knowing where to go?

how many of your goals (that you had set for yourself all these years) have you achieved?

50%? 80%? 20%? 0%?

have life been going the way you have planned? or has it taken a twist and left you stranded in a way that you cant get out?

how many of you believe that your life is yours to write and how many of you believe life is unpredictable?

can one's life really be planned or should one accept what comes along?

do you plan or do you not?

are you a person who can't take surprises?

or are you someone who loves the unpredictability in life (makes it exciting)?

i miss the blue!

i need to go tanning soon.. people have been tellimg me that i looked shagged (nope, not THAT kind of shagged).. lol..

gotta change my lifestyle soon~! ;D

sometimes, no matter how hard you try, it comes to nothing.

you keep climbing, but you are stil at the bottom of the hill.

maybe..

you jus don't deserve to be at the top.




helplessness, abandonment, hopelessness..

which is the worst feeling?



i keep trying and trying and trying but i keep failing.

Life is like a boat - Rie fu

[LIFE IS LIKE A BOAT] Rie Fu Prima sigla finale: episodi 01-13	[LIFE IS LIKE A BOAT] English Translation Traduzione in inglese
Nobody knows who I really am I never felt this empty before And if I ever need someone to come along, Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?	Nobody knows who I really am I never felt this empty before And if I ever need someone to come along Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong
We are all rowing the boat of fate The waves keep on coming and we can't escape But if we ever get lost on our way The waves would guide you through another day	We are all rowing the boat of fate The waves keep on comin' and we can't escape But if we ever get lost on our way The waves would guide you thru another day
dooku de iki o shiteru toomei ni natta mitai kudayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku shisarete tadake	Taking deep breathes As if I were transparent I thought I was in the dark, but I was only blindfolded
inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made	Offer a prayer A new day is waiting Til the ends Of a vividly shining sea
Nobody knows who I really am Maybe they just don't give a damn But if I ever need someone to come along I know you would follow me, and keep me strong	Nobody knows who I really am Maybe they just don't give a damn But if I ever need someone to come along I know you would follow me, and keep me strong
hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku mukedashiteku naru tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o tsureteku	People's hearts change And you'll stop wanting to slip away The moon is in a new cycle So bring the boat alon
And every time I see your face The ocean heaves up to my heart You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon I can see the shore	And every time I see your face, The oceans heave up to my heart You make me wanna strain at the oars, And soon I can see the shore
Oh, I can see the shore When will I see the shore?	Oh, I can see the shore When will I.... can see the shore?
I want you to know who I really am I never thought I'd feel this way towards you And if you ever need someone to come along, I will follow you, and keep you strong	I want you to know who I really am I never thought I'd feel this way towards you And if you ever need someone to come along I will follow you, and keep you strong
tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku odayakana hi mo tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de ume o terashidasu	The journey still goes on Even on quiet days The moon is in a new cycle Illuminating the boat
inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made	Offer a prayer A new day is waiting Til the ends Of a vividly shining sea
And every time I see your face The ocean heaves up to my heart You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon I can see the shore	And every time I see your face, The oceans heave up to my heart You make me wanna strain at the oars, And soon I can see the shore
Unmei no huneoko gi nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to watashi-tachi o sou kedo Sore mo suteki na tabi ne, dore mo suteki na tabi ne	Row the boat of destiny And even though Wave after wave attacks us This is a wonderful journey They're all wonderful journies

wednesday, a hell of a night! a welcome home party for a dear friend.

darn entertaining with good music and good company! *winks*

ok, let the pics do the talking! =D

sexy baby!


kiss kiss for the girls (where's phy?)!


i love kissing my girls.


5 ppl


a new member added: me!


the whole group! =D

sorry, his pics are blurred cos he's too popular!! =P


pple like love licking pam. no. seriously.


commercial ad for baileys choc


kevin n phy


did i mention that i love pam? =D


the bffs.


the girls for the nite. =)


mike (i think), pam n kevin.


nevermind the fingers. he was being bored. haha


grace is a shy girl. =X



well darlings, lets hit the dance floor again soon! i loveeeee dancing to the music with pretty girls! =P

PS: welcome back dude and thanks for the night. =)

What Angela Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want. And that's marriage - with the right person. You're serious about settling down some time soon. Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

"At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk
about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we
can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what
you do. Some things you say cause there's no other choice. Some things you keep
to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak
for themselves."

how long have you been keeping silent?

how long do you intend to keep to yourself?

how long... can you hold?