saw this when i was browing thru my friendster bulletin:

17 Signs

SEVENTEEN:

You look at their profile constantly.


SIXTEEN:

When you're on the phone with them late
at night and they hang up, you still
miss them even when it was just two
minutes ago.


FIFTEEN:

You read their Texts and Ims Over and
over again.



FOURTEEN:

You walk really slow when you're with
them.



THIRTEEN:

You feel shy whenever they're around.



ELEVEN:

When you think about them, your heart
beats faster but slower at the same
time.



TEN:

You smile when you hear their voice.



NINE:

When you look at them, you can't see
the
other people around you, you just see
him/her.



EIGHT:

You start listening to slow songs while
thinking about them.



SEVEN:

They're all you think about.



SIX:

You get high just from their scent.



FIVE:

You realize you're always smiling when
you're looking at them.



FOUR:

You would do anything for them, just to
see them.



THREE:

While reading this, there was one
person
on your mind this whole time.



TWO:

You were so busy thinking about that
person, you didnt notice number twelve
was missing



ONE:

You just scrolled up to check & are now
silently laughing at yourself.

how true how true. =)

anyway, i know i promise to upload the pics from the partying and i will. maybe next week cos i have another 400 over pics to upload! lol.

a dear friend (a very handsome one too) of mine went to taiwan for training, gonna miss him so much till he comes back. night life gonna be so boring without him. =\

take care my friend.

took neo prints once again. =D







really love these pics we took! ^^

i'm gonna miss you.. so much..

had alot of pics over the weekend. thurs and fri. really really alot. xD

shall leave it for another day.

took a pic of 3 friends yesterday:

without friendship, human is nothing.

a friend said this:

learn to love with no strings attach

love with no returns
love with no regrets


and

he said this to the one he loves for all his life but never his:

"i always tot i will be the happiest man to love and hav you in my life but it was never the case, i find myself happier to see u in blissful life with a bless marriage with someone u love"


and nope, he wasnt ONLY saying (like most ppl did).

he meant it and has meant it for the last decade and will mean it for the next decade and more.

such things do not only happen in movies, it do happen in real life.

but only one in a million.

something to be proud of?

i don think so. cos the one he loves will always have this regret:

having someone who loves you wholeheartedly but you can never love him back.

being loved doesnt necessarily means blissed, jus as loving doesnt necessarily means suffering.

it can be both.

life is never balanced.

how much does one know about oneself?

especially when it involves the matters of heart?

so many times, pple can't make up their mind on what they want, yet they do not want to lose what they have, in turn, they make the other party wait for them.

till?

they finally know what they want.

but usually, grass is greener on the other side.

so?

you won't know.

things like "i am not ready for commitment, but we can stay as friends for now" or "can you give me more time to think?" come out.

its a selfish nature, nothing wrong with it since humans are selfish by nature.

its one of the tributes to being a human, a normal one.

afraid of making the wrong choice, one will choose the easiest way out - do not choose at all.

let the other party make the choice for you.

if he/she can wait, wait. if can't, leave.

either way, u will have your choice made out for you in time to come.

at the same time, u do not need to take on the role of Heartbreaker.

selfish, cowardly but human and clever nonetheless.



humans, in nature, are weak.

they do not have the courage to change things.

they do not have the courage to try again once they are bitten.

if one person is to break their heart once, they wouldnt have the courage to give this person another chance even if their hearts still yearn for this person.

they do not dare to take it, at the same time, they do not have the courage to throw it away.

so..

they leave it there, waiting for heart (that once broke them) to disappear or stay. to let time make the choice for them (or sometimes, for some people, wait for another person who can give them the courage to choose).

to prove if its real, its true or is it there to break their hearts again.

who can blame them?

its only human nature to fear what had hurt you.



the Heartbreaker does not have the rights that the Heartbroken have.

who is the Heartbreaker and who is the Heartbroken?

does the one who pull the trigger automatically take on the role of Heartbreaker while the one who get shot is the Heartbroken?

how clear is the line?

you ended it, you made the choice, you are the Heartbreaker.

so you cant cry, you cant be miserable, you cant be hurting like I do.

how true is that?



i don't know. no one knows till one has broken a heart he/she din mean to or had no choice to.

its human nature to protect oneself.



some choose to let time soften the impact of the breaking.

some choose not to drag and end it there and then.

which is better?



i guess my take is to end it there and then. dragging only breaks a person into more pieces.

to let the person be prepared for it doesnt make it any better.

the person still cry, still hurt as much .. when things changed.

he/she doesnt cry when the BIG thing came, the final news came isn't cos it doesnt hurt anymore, but cos he/she had cried enough when he/she felt the change, got the hint.

dragging only make the Heartbreaker feel better, not the Heartbroken.

the Heartbroken still cry as much, still hurt as badly, but at a different time as the Heartbreaker.

the only difference is Heartbreaker will not feel as guilty as originally should.

"All blame is a waste of time. No matter how much fault you find with another, and regardless of how much you blame him, it will not change you."
- Wayne Dyer

the Heartbroken always see things in a clearer view than the Heartbreaker.

in the end, its the Heartbreaker who hurts more as he/she will realise and be enlightened by the Heartbroken the real reason behind the ending of things.

the reason that he/she originally thought is usually his/her own preferred reason. its not the real reason.



sometimes, when things are lost, they can never be found.

no matter how hard you try, regrets are regrets.




next time, when you see a couple sitting at a table and one is crying, one isnt.

don assume there and then that the one crying is the Heartbroken and the one isnt is the Heartbreaker cos you wil never know who is the one hurting more.

you will never know cos you will never be them.

"Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice;
it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved."
- Winston Churchill

this is what i saw on my google homepage.

something for you guys to ponder upon.

is it really just a matter of choice?

or does chance matter jus as much?


PS: wanted to blog alot, but shall leave it to another day. too tired.

its a beautiful sunday and here i am, in my room, all alone, enjoying the peace of the weekend.

woke up to an empty house today; mum went to aunt's place for mahjong, sis went out (to date or work) and boy's at SIM for revision class.

felt weird at first as Sundays are the only days where the whole family is at home.

bathed and had food, then sat in my room, with the sunlight coming in through my windows, surfing net and enjoying the scene outside.

nothing much, jus blue sky, white clouds, roof of HDB flats and birds flying, no difference from everyday scene, yet today, it was quiet.

no annoying horns and engines of cars, no irritating kids shouting at each other...

ahhhhh... jus my radio playing songs..

feel so much like melbourne, the room back in Bundoora, with nothing but peace and birds chirping. =)

i guess thats what i miss most back there, the peace. nobody and nothing to disturb me, jus me, my laptop and my music. how simple.

as 6pm approaches, the sun is setting and the sky looks even more serene..

Don't Hold Back Your Love by Daryl Hall John Oates is playing in the background.. sounds so meaningful at this very moment. =)


(Page, O'Brien, Tyson)

I know what it's like to be forgotten
Left alone with your simple dreams
But even dreams are fading fast
No one to turn to when you can't sleep at night
Waking up to another day that will soon be over
And if you think that time has forgotten you
Well just look into my eyes
And know the times we'll change

[Chorus:]
Don't hold back your love
I know it's here
I wanna see it come to life before my eyes
Don't hold back your love
Show me your heart
Cause I will always be here by your side

Don't be mistaken there's still some work to do
Gotta get up every single day
Face the judge and jury
No one will notice they've got their own lives
We've got something they all want
It'll be their surprise
And if you think there is no place to run
Just hold onto my hand
And face whatever comes

[Chorus]

One more chance to find the higher ground
One more chance before the curtain's down
One more night to turn your life around again

[Chorus]

boy came back with a bouquet of mini sunflowers. what a sweet surprise. i had never seen mini sunflowers, the total replica of the huge ones, but so much smaller. its so sweet. *smiles*


life is so simple at this very moment. sweet love, peace and serene.

if only everyday is like that, with no troubles, no worries, no sadness and anger.

if only.

sorry for MIA-ing again. fell sick again. been 2 days. =(

must be all the late nights and drinking, got me dehyrated and constipated which leads to fever. =.=

jer had been nagging me to rest more which i am now (cos i don have a choice).. lol..

well, had lots of pics to upload.

as for my life, its still drinking and clubbing.. lol..

nah.. my close friend, anson came back to singapore 2 weeks back and thus, we met up..

went to visit ferris wheel (or singapore flyer) before we parted and met up again at o bar..

wait! we met at o bar as his friend's friend was having his/her birthday there! thats why! lol.

okok, i was there with my usual gang (joy & co) and pam's gang (pam & co).. lol.. well, it was a wed! xD

i din drink much that night (really!) as i wasnt feeling very well..

poor anson had to wait for me for an hour in the afternoon cos i went to see doc etc.. =X

it was great meeting him, really happy to meet him.. its (almost) always good to see old friends.. haha

his friend. from rmit too! lol.

before that, i had dinner with pam and joy and wakaru @ The Central.

pam told us to order niku udon for her and so we did. the waitress asked if we wan mini or regular size, of cos we chose regular size!

and when it came.. we were speechless:


see how huge it was?!!

apparently, their definition of mini and regular is very different from ours. =.= joy couldnt resist temptatio and got her egg with meat thingy. (forgot the name). lol


as for me, i ordered a chirashi and wakame udon set. and it came as chirashi RICE and wakame udon set. =.=


spent at least an hour there trying to finish the food and touching up our makeup.. lol..

anyway, we spent awhile there before we went to zouk with joy. the girls were busy taking pics while i was busy helping them take pics or lending them my hp to take pics. =.=

pam and phy

anson and pam

and yea, ray had the cutest specs ever!! its sooo cute! ^^ but he lost it in the sea the very next day. =.=

ray and i , with me wearing his cute cute specs. haha

alex with ray's specs. lol.

anyway, anson found one of my gf very pretty (no need to guess. i am NOT telling!).. haha..

pam, phy touching pam's boobs, kevin and jayce.

alex, pam and phy.

jayce and i


anson enjoyed himself at zouk as we all did since its more for our generation!

but he's old, cos he kept siting down towards the end of the night, claiming tired! lol

but hard to blame him as it was almost morning according to Melb's time! xD

our only grp pic that night.

thats the best night i ever had. really enjoyed myself with anson.. gotta wait till end of the year before i can see him again. =(


well, saturday went to work for phy's bf's wine cellar. we had to wear a red tank top and demin skirt with denim skirt and black boots. mum was so worried when she saw me in such an attire and kept asking what kind of job was i working for. lol.


pam and i


me, jo and pam.


grp pic.

boy boy then whispered this to me, "you wear less when you go clubbing!" lol. true true. =X

anyway, it was not bad, the working. got some allowance. haha. better than nothing. from there, i got another job opportunity! (talk about that later)



this is wat happened when u are bored. lol. pam said the pic above is her: big boobs and hips and oh, the white paper in the middle was her belly button. =X

went to dbl o to meet joy & co after that.. yes yes, it was boring. i got sick of it to.. lol.. but agreement is agreement! cant back out! besides, it was fun that night. =X

me and joy

francis and i

francis and joy

we french - kissing. haha

joy and francis's friends.

bumped into lei there (we went la kopi jus few nights before dbl o! lol)..


as usual, we have all changed but we don't feel the distance. really happy to see him. its always good to see old friends (or most of the time.. haha)..

quite fun cos got to know new pple (francis's friends).. they are all very nice.. wont try to make girls drunk or be touchy or anything.. jus purely friendly. =)

francis's friends.

good people to hang out with during clubbing..

as for the other job i was saying, it was at raffles town club, as receptionist..


pam and i

it was good money as we only had to sit there and register and eat good food. lol.

their food is really delicious! better than some hotels! ^^

after work, boy came to fetch us and we went to suntec starbucks to meet the forum pple.

and that ended my weekend.. for last last week.

as for last week, i was resting at home (and jer was proud of me!) till sat when i met up with pei to o bar. nope, we didnt drink much nor club, our motive was to chill out and catch up with our lives.

its weird going to such places without joy. i think we hang out too much with each other. lol.

as for this week, i am sick and therefore, i don think i am going out. =(

i wan to watch movies though. a healthy weekend for once maybe? =X

i must be crazy these days, clubbing non-stop! drinking so much it reminds me of the days in Melb. lol.

but its really fun with the girls. =D

met alot of pple, some which i REALLY do not wish to see, some I was ok with it.

met another scriptwriter who was sooooooooooooooo fake i wish to kick him in his balls and punch his face.

he actually saw me and my friends, yet he pretended not to see us (which was no big deal since we did not wish to see him either)..

then another friend came and say hi to us, he suddenly saw us and said hi!

and he asked the ultimate qns to this friend and i.

Scriptwriter: "hey"

Friend: "oh hi!"

Scriptwriter:" jus came?"

Friend: "yea"

Scriptwriter: "who did u come with?" (he saw Friend coming in alone).

Friend: "As usual, with myself."

Scriptwriter turned to me.

Scriptwriter: "Hey! Din see you!"

Me (fake smile): "oh hey!"

Scriptwriter: "when was u here?" (he saw me and my friends like almost 3hours ago)

Me: "About 11 plus 12." (it was already 2am then)

Scriptwriter (evil grin): "oh....... you came with him?" (pointing at Friend)

Me: "No............................... He jus reached!"

I turned away and ended the conversation.

see how far these scriptwriters will go to create gossip about your life?

stupid morons.

i bet he is calling some other scriptwriter(s) who is/are soooooooooo interested in my life and gossip. **

well, i must admire one skill of his, to continue being fake and pretend that everyone likes him when most of them dislike him. good denial skill!

anyway, some pics of my clubbing scenes the other day. =D

see how lucky pam is???? lol


the best friends that love kissing!

pam and joy.

A2 and joy.

pam and i (it wasnt supposed to be landscape but.............. =X)

A2 and pam.

the girls! =D

next, there are so many men that pissed me off these days.

they come in shapes and sizes, rich and poor, handsome and not-so-good-looking.

one of the stuff that pissed me off is getting a girl's hopes high only to break them into million pieces.

keep asking the girl to wait and wait and wait for him when he has no answers.

pouring hot and cold.

wanting to stay as friends but kept wanting to have physical contacts (not sex).

being so self-centered, only think of himself, how stressed he was etc without thinking that he wasnt the only one feeling this way.

to wait for someone isnt easy. its tough.

i am not generalizing everything, jus this particular incident.

made me think differently of the guy somehow.

next, emo guy.

always assume. never ask when in doubt (i thought only girls love to do that).

happy, be friends. not happy, pretend as strangers.

wtf.

and of cos, the same effect: pouring hot and cold. **

then.. bad guy trying to act good guy.

this kind are jus plain disgusting. pple know u are bad, yet you still pretend to be good. how fake can that be?

backstab pple, trying to break pple up.

turn around and pretend still friends with you.

backstab own friends to get their girlfriends (which usually fail as the girls really aint interested in him).

just 3 incidents, i am turned off by guys (not all of cos!).

these 3 guys, i really wish i can do something to make them see what kind of persons they really are and get them to wake up their stupid ideas.

someone showed me this quote and i find it meaningful:



hope one day we will all learn to do it this way. =)