KFC Christmas Buddy Meal

Every meal sold, KFC will donate 10 cents to SADeaf (Singapore Association for the Deaf) Tuition and Enrichment Programme. =)

So patronise KFC today!

CELEBRITIES GATHER TO HELP RAISE FUNDS FOR CHILDREN’S CHARITIES ASSOCIATION

‘Love In Any Language’ Christmas Fair cum Walkathon 2008 . 22 November 2008 . Saturday
Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza

Local and overseas celebrities including Korean star, Lee An will be making special appearances at Children’s Charities Association’s (CCA) ‘Love In Any Language’ Christmas Fair 2008.

Every year since 1965, Children’s Charities Association has been organizing the Annual Christmas Fair cum Walkathon to raise funds to help the less fortunate children under the care of the six member charities. This year, this major fundraising event will be held on Saturday, 22 November 2008 at Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza from 8.30am to 6pm.


The event begins with the Children’s Charities Association Walkathon at 8.30am. Bring your kids down and meet Kooky, Channel 5 Cares Mascot who will flag off the Walkathon.



Themed the ‘Love In Any Language’ Christmas Fair 2008, the event will be graced by CCA’s patron, Mrs. S R Nathan as the Guest-of-Honour. The highlight of the day features a fashion show – Fashion MINDS: Shineon! Love Recycled, specially prepared by 25 children from MINDS Lee Kong Chian Gardens School and Shineon! School on Stage. Hosted by Margaret Lee and Lin Youfa, the show features apparels donated by our local celebrities Mark Lee, multi talented artiste Jiu Jian, Kenn, a composer/actor/ singer/ writer, Yang Lina, Yang Libing and many more. With a little creativity, students of LaSalle and NAFA will then transform the apparels to beautiful kids’ wear for these young models, to make a fashion statement.

To add sparkle to the event, a Channel 5 All Star 2009 Calendar will be launched and sold at the fair. This limited edition calendar feature stars such as Gurmit Singh, Fiona Xie, Adrian Pang, Michelle Chia, Michelle Chong, Utt, Andrea Fonseka, Chua Enlai, Rebecca Lim, Julian Hee, Aaron Aziz and Jas Arora. Retailing at only $15 each, proceeds will be donated to CCA. Some of the artistes like Adrian Pang, Michelle Chia, Fiona Xie, Rebecca Lim, Utt, Michelle Chong and Chua Enlai will be on site to autograph the calendars!



Making A Difference One Child At A Time

The Children's Charities Association (CCA) is the coordinating body purposed to organize fund-raising projects for member charities that have the common objective of helping physically, mentally and socially disadvantaged children of Singapore. To date, they have reached out to more than 40,000 less fortunate children.



The six member charities are single minded in their effort to educate, train and assist the children under their care to become independent and useful citizens who can play their part for the nation.



The six CCA member charities are:

* Association for Persons with Special Needs
* Movement for the Intellectually Disabled of Singapore
* St Andrew's Mission Hospital
* Singapore Association for the Deaf
* Singapore Children's Society
* Spastic Children's Association of Singapore

HOW YOU CAN HELP THE CHILDREN’S CHARITIES ASSOCIATION

1. Participate in the Children’s Charities Association Walkathon
22 Nov 2008, Saturday . Ngee Ann City CIVIC Plaza . 8.30am to 10.30am
Participate in the Children’s Charities Association Walkathon with a child for only S$20 per person or as a corporate charity activity for only $2,000. (Approximately 2 km along Orchard Road.) Register online at http://www.childrenscharities.org.sg/


2. Donations can be made by mail: Children’s Charities Association
14 Holland Avenue #01-69 Singapore 271014 . Cheque should be crossed & made payable to Children’s Charities Association. * Donations are Double Tax-Deductible


3. Purchase or assist in the sale of ‘LOVE IN ANY LANGUAGE’ Christmas Fair 2008 Coupons
At S$10 each, the coupons will entitle the donors an afternoon of fun-filled entertainment and a variety of scrumptious food and drinks, plus stand a chance to win many attractive prizes.



For more information, please contact:

Children’s Charities Association
Mariati Selamat
Tel: 67732561
Fax: 6773 2596
Email: ccassn@pacific.net.sg


Singapore Association for the Deaf
Dawn Lee
Tel: 6344 8274
Email: cam@sadeaf.org.sg






i am selling the coupons now, thus, u can look for me if you wanna buy and thanks in advance for doing your part for charity. the children will appreciate it. =)

now i am all alone in the office and bored to tears.. nope, its not as if i am very free but my work is interpreting..

yup, you heard right. i am an interpreter.

which language do i interpret for?

sign language.

yes, sign language.

shall talk more about my work next time.


anyway, as an interpreter, i interpret. which means, my work is out bound, not in bound. thus, i am busy when i need to interpret (which i did these few days).

i had been running around everyday this week and today, i am supposed to be out the whole day too. however, there was last min changes and ta da! i am stuck in the office.

i don't really mind but today, all my colleagues took time off and i am all alone in the office.

thats............................ boring. =(




i have been stoning since 1230pm and it has been 3hours. boring.

and thus, i started taking random pics.

my schedule for this month (and its still adding!):


its not a joke when i say i am busy. my schedule is sooooo full! and its still adding. =.=

some heart shaped leaf i had picked up one night while taking a stroll:


my butterfly contact lens:


a newspaper cutting of Mrs Nathan's visit to my workplace, The Singapore Association for the Deaf yesterday:




then, i started playing with all the photo editing software - picasa, CS 3, photoscape, photofurnia etc etc.

and came up with random pics.. lol..







i am bored. i really am. ok, i think i should REALLY get started with my designing of joy's blog layout before she starts screaming at me. lol. ciao~

it was honey's 21st birthday yesterday and the theme was Back To School!

and therefore, we went there as high school girls! lol.


here's the group pic of all school students! ;D


the birthday girl with her love. :D

seriously, this is my first time dressing up like this.. its weird but darn fun!



haha. met phy at downtown east to change to a school girl..

well, kevin was saying the specs did not suit me, cos it look like harry potter..



but i like being different.. lol.. doesnt matter if its not pretty etc.. i don mind being funny.. lol..

cos that's the fun part! :D
everyone looked as us as we walked to the country club.. we looked like well, high school girls.. but i guess there were too little buttons up and the skirts were too short.. lol..


well, dressing up means lots of camwhoring and ta da! we took pics whenever we can!










the school girls! apparently, girls are still more "steady" when it comes to dressing up! only 2 guys dressed up as school students and thats cos their gfs dressed up too! x(


its really fun. first time dressing up as school girl.. and the next dressing up will be halloween this saturday at zouk! yeah! ^^

see ya guys there this saturday!

don put others in higher priorities..

always put yourself first because in this world, no one loves you more than yourself.

as promised, i went to ladies night with my best friend and pam.

we were pretty excited actually.

joy wore a brown podka dots tube top and was "forced" to buy a new top to change as pam has phobia (an extreme phobia) against podka dots.

apparently, bad things will fall on her when she get into physical contact with podka dots. so yea.. lol..



before we went clubbing, they accompanied me to get hair extensions.

they were patient enough to wait for 3hours..

and joy bought alot of clothes while waiting.. lol.

and accordingly to them, i look better in long hair.. sexier in a sense.. lol..

well, i guess girls still look better in long hair, more feminine.

but in such a hot weather, i admit i am crazy to have hair extensions.

but i am vain, i really am. lol.


after that, we took a cab down to O bar.. i remembered joy telling the taxi driver to stop in front with the BIG O.

what a way to describe.. lol.






anyway, clubbing was boring..

the clubs were filled with underdressed people and lousy music..

people were wearing tank top, shorts and sneakers.. some with slippers still and they were in!

what's wrong with the door bitches and bouncers?!!


'O' was really terrible.. the DJ kept playing lousy music and from what pam and joy said, the DJ played the same songs every week!

omg. thats really bad. it totally killed my mood to dance and enjoy.

i only had 3 glasses of alcohol and danced for a max of 1 hour in total.




wait, i think it was only half an hour. OMG!

we drank, danced, camwhored and fooled around (nope, nth xxx rated)..



ok.. maybe it was a bit x rated.. =X

and oh, there were these 2 girls who kept dancing dirty, or they were trying to. but it was obscence. the actions were too big and too exagerrated.



we left her at 1am to 'Z' (as she refused to follow us.. lol..) and it was worse.


it was crowded and the people there jus sucked big time..

seriously, if you are big and tall and CLUMSY, don't club!

i was actually punched near the eye by one idiot!

i seriously did not know what the hell he was doing, he was like a robot trying to be human and dance and he elbowed me.

i was furious. i really was. all vulgarities were out.

i mean, what the hell was that?

i was the target the whole night!

i got pushed, stepped and elbowed!

damn.

not to mention the music sucked big time.

we left at 230am. this was the first time i had left early in zouk on a wednesday.



after that, we went to buangkok to have supper. and we met weirdos who kept whistling and asking us to join them for drinks.

crazy. if we wanted company, we would have asked guys along for clubbing (which we DID NOT).

after supper, we passsed by them and they did the same thing again.

idiots.

we walked all the way to the main road junction to get cabs instead of the taxi stand right in front of the food court.

tats how irritating they were.

and there were only the 2 of us, 2 girls with nothing to protect ourselves with.

later, i got on the cab while joy was still waiting.

i was worried as the road was EMPTY. yes, EMPTY.

so i called her and she jus boarded the cab.

there was a guy driving an expensive car and slowed down to ask her if she wanna join him for a spin or sth.

she said no and he followed her.

lucky for her, a cab came and she boarded it immediately.

desperados everywhere man!

what's wrong with them?! duh.


*rolleyes*

anyway, i feel that i'm really a pubbing person now.. i prefer chilling out and singing songs than dancing..

does it have something to do with age or?

i wonder..

another 17hours or so, and you shall see a different me.

at a strange yet familiar place, having the horrible yet heavenly drinks, listening to the noisy yet soothing music.

yes. i will be clubing tmr with my best friends and a bunch of great friends!

our route for tmr night: DBL O, O BAR, ZOUK. well, we may drop by SB before starting our dancing spree!

so come and say hi if you were to see me! :D

learn, angela, learn.

i am seriously considering having a bike again.

i can't stand the daily squeezing of the train, having to feel the heat of another human being in front of me, the body odour of the man beside me, the feel of "thing" from a man behind me and the fart of some idiot in the train.

that is the worst thing that a person can do, esp during such a peak period where everyone was gasping for breath in the train. with a person farting, the rest can't breathe at all.

either you breathe in the fart, or u hope u wont die from suffocating before you reach your stop. asshole.

not to mention having to miss at least 2 trains before i am being pushed and squeezed like a cheese into the train.

the worst "daily procedure" is to shout "EXCUSE ME!" when i wanna alight as the idiots standing at the door (mind you, not those who are dying to get in but those who are ALREADY in the train!) who wouldn't budge, standing like statues, hypnotizing themselves into believing they are just spirits, and we human beings, will have no problem passing THROUGH them to get out of the train.

which of cos, sadly to say, they are NOT ghosts, and we CANT pass THROUGH them, we have to pass BY them in order to get out of the blooody train!

so either you try to push your way through, or you can try shouting "EXCUSE ME!" and hope that they will get the message and move out of the door so that you can pass.

of cos, there will be idiots who do not understand the meaning of "excuse me" and stand there still. the most they will do are to turn their body so that their shoulders face the door instead of their chest.

well, it helps if there's only ONE person blocking the door, but most often than not, there are at least THREE people blocking the door! if all three were to turn that way, its NOT going to help matters!

then, when i reached the bus interchange, i need to queue up for the bus. the queue is extremely long. i m not exaggerating. its like queueing for hello kitty (years back) or iphone (recent).

the only difference is the queue is divided to 3 or 4 rows as the long queues are the same for almost all the bus.

for those who has no idea, i need to take train from amk to tpy every morning, and take bus 31 to my workplace at mountbatten. it takes 1 and a half hour and thus, time is precious.

some would say, "wake up earlier lah!" but then, how early can you wake up? i'm waking up at 6am everyday now and still, i am stuck in the human jam.

there are more n more people taking trains now and with everybody having the same thinking of waking up earlier to prevent getting stuck in the jam, the time for jams only shift to an earlier time and worse, it lasts longer!

really. by the time i reach my workplace, i am always in a bad mood, cos i always look messy and sweaty sometimes. damn.

so i should start scouting for good and cheap bikes.. i am still in love with SP but the petrol will kill me (i am poor and stingy, kill me).. maybe i should get vespa. lol. i want vintage bike!

any lobangs? :D

Wal Mart Applicant revealed...
Below is an actual job application that this 75 year old senior citizen submitted to Walmart in
California . They hired him because he was funny.....


NAME: Kenneth Way (Grumpy Old Bastard)

SEX: Not lately, but I am looking for the right woman (or at least one who will cooperate)

DESIRED POSITION: Company President or Vice President. But seriously, whatever's available. If I was in a position to be picky, I wouldn't be applying here in the first place

DESIRED SALARY: $185,000 a year plus stock options and a Michael Ovitz style severance package. If that's not possible, make an offer and we can haggle.

EDUCATION: Yes.

LAST POSITION HELD: Target for middle management hostility.

PREVIOUS SALARY: A lot less than I'm worth.

MOST NOTABLE ACHIEVEMENT: My incredible collection of stolen pens and post-it notes.

REASON FOR LEAVING: It sucked.

HOURS AVAILABLE TO WORK: Any.

PREFERRED HOURS: 1:30-3:30 p.m. Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday.

DO YOU HAVE ANY SPECIAL SKILLS?: Yes, but they're better suited to a more intimate environment .

MAY WE CONTACT YOUR CURRENT EMPLOYER?: If I had one, would I be here?

DO YOU HAVE ANY PHYSICAL CONDITIONS THAT WOULD PROHIBIT YOU
FROM LIFTING UP TO 50 lbs.?: Of what?

DO YOU HAVE A CAR?: I think the more appropriate question here would be 'Do you have a car that runs?'

HAVE YOU RECEIVED ANY SPECIAL AWARDS OR RECOGNITION?: I may already be a winner of the Publishers Clearing House Sweepstakes, so they
tell me.

DO YOU SMOKE?: On the job - no! On my breaks - yes!

WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE DOING IN FI VE YEARS?: Living in the Bahamas with a fabulously wealthy dumb sexy blonde supermodel who thinks I'm the greatest thing since sliced bread. Actually, I'd like to be doing that now.

NEAREST RELATIVE: 7 miles

DO YOU CERTIFY THAT THE ABOVE IS TRUE AND COMPLETE TO THE BEST
OF YOUR KNOWLEDGE?: Oh yes, absolutely.

***Old People Rock! ***

Can I Borrow $25?

An email sent by Jer & I wanna share with all of you who are reading my blog. do spend some time reading it alright? =)

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'

DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?'

SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD (angrily): 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?'

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'

'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious.

DAD: 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.

'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier,' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life.

We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts.

Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love.

If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

peeps, i am selling these 3 cosplay uniforms. let me know if u or any of ur friends are interested! :D

front view

back view

50bucks excluding postage.
measurements:
chest: 32 to 34 (cup A to C, D can too but maybe a bit tight)
waist: 24 to 25inches
hips: 36 inches



50bucks excluding postage.
tie included.
cane not included.
measurements:
chest: 32 to 34 inches (cup A to D)
waist: 24-27inches
hips: 36inches



50bucks excluding postage.
measurements:
chest: 32 to 34 inches (cup A to C suitable, if bigger cups, u jus need to unbutton the top button!)
waist: 24-27inches
hips: 36inches



if u buy any 2 and above, it will be free registered postage! :D

help me spread alright? thanks!

P.S: they are all brand new. what you see is what you get (not the models of cos!). =)

檔壓力太大時, 人的生體會出狀況, 讓你知道自己已不行.. 是時候休息了..

但人總喜歡挑戰極限.. 不願意就這麼放棄..

到最後,吃虧的只有自己..

值得嗎?

只有自己知道.



when the stress level is too much for you, your body will start to give way, telling you that you can't hold on much longer.. its time to rest..

but being human, you love to push the limits.. unwilling to give up just like that..

in the end, you are the one at a disadvantage..

is it worth it?

only you will know.

was browsing through my list of blogs and stumbled upon this test. Its called Humanmetrics, a Jung Typology Test (link here). Well, I did the test and this is what i am:

INFP (Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving)

Your Type is
INFP

Introverted	Intuitive	Feeling	Perceiving
Strength of the preferences %
67	12	62	44

You are:

• distinctively expressed introvert
• slightly expressed intuitive personality
• distinctively expressed feeling personality
• moderately expressed perceiving personality

INFP is also called the healer. And...

Healers present a calm and serene face to the world, and can seem shy, even distant around others. But inside they're anything but serene, having a capacity for personal caring rarely found in the other types. Healers care deeply about the inner life of a few special persons, or about a favorite cause in the world at large. And their great passion is to heal the conflicts that trouble individuals, or that divide groups, and thus to bring wholeness, or health, to themselves, their loved ones, and their community.

Healers have a profound sense of idealism that comes from a strong personal sense of right and wrong. They conceive of the world as an ethical, honorable place, full of wondrous possibilities and potential goods. In fact, to understand Healers, we must understand that their deep commitment to the positive and the good is almost boundless and selfless, inspiring them to make extraordinary sacrifices for someone or something they believe in. Set off from the rest of humanity by their privacy and scarcity (around one percent of the population), Healers can feel even more isolated in the purity of their idealism.

Also, Healers might well feel a sense of separation because of their often misunderstood childhood. Healers live a fantasy-filled childhood-they are the prince or princess of fairy tales-an attitude which, sadly, is frowned upon, or even punished, by many parents. With parents who want them to get their head out of the clouds, Healers begin to believe they are bad to be so fanciful, so dreamy, and can come to see themselves as ugly ducklings. In truth, they are quite OK just as they are, only different from most others-swans reared in a family of ducks.

At work, Healers are adaptable, welcome new ideas and new information, are patient with complicated situations, but impatient with routine details. Healers are keenly aware of people and their feelings, and relate well with most others. Because of their deep-seated reserve, however, they can work quite happily alone. When making decisions, Healers follow their heart not their head, which means they can make errors of fact, but seldom of feeling. They have a natural interest in scholarly activities and demonstrate, like the other Idealists, a remarkable facility with language. They have a gift for interpreting stories, as well as for creating them, and thus often write in lyric, poetic fashion. Frequently they hear a call to go forth into the world and help others, a call they seem ready to answer, even if they must sacrifice their own comfort.

hmmmm..its weird to see interpreting here..was that a sign for me to stay on to my current job?

well, there's career possibilities too, and this is the list:

Career

• Social Service
• Counseling
• Religious Education
• Education
• Art/Science
• Humanities
• Web Design
• Musician
• Literature/Writer
• Archaeology
• Health Care
• Psychology/Psychotherapist

then, there's one more which describes INFP in a ... more layman's terms.

INFPs never seem to lose their sense of wonder. One might say they see life through rose-colored glasses. It's as though they live at the edge of a looking-glass world where mundane objects come to life, where flora and fauna take on near-human qualities.

INFPs have the ability to see good in almost anyone or anything. Even for the most unlovable the INFP is wont to have pity.

Their extreme depth of feeling is often hidden, even from themselves, until circumstances evoke an impassioned response.

Of course, not all of life is rosy, and INFPs are not exempt from the same disappointments and frustrations common to humanity. As INTPs tend to have a sense of failed competence, INFPs struggle with the issue of their own ethical perfection, e.g., performance of duty for the greater cause. An INFP friend describes the inner conflict as not good versus bad, but on a grand scale, Good vs. Evil.

And then, the functional analysis:

Introverted Feeling

INFPs live primarily in a rich inner world of introverted Feeling. Being inward-turning, the natural attraction is away from world and toward essence and ideal. This introversion of dominant Feeling, receiving its data from extraverted intuition, must be the source of the quixotic nature of these usually gentle beings. Feeling is caught in the approach- avoidance bind between concern both for people and for All Creatures Great and Small, and a psycho-magnetic repulsion from the same. The "object," be it homo sapiens or a mere representation of an organism, is valued only to the degree that the object contains some measure of the inner Essence or greater Good. Doing a good deed, for example, may provide intrinsic satisfaction which is only secondary to the greater good of striking a blow against Man's Inhumanity to Mankind.

Extraverted iNtuition

Extraverted intuition faces outward, greeting the world on behalf of Feeling. What the observer usually sees is creativity with implied good will. Intuition spawns this type's philosophical bent and strengthens pattern perception. It combines as auxiliary with introverted Feeling and gives rise to unusual skill in both character development and fluency with language--a sound basis for the development of literary facility. If INTPs aspire to word mechanics, INFPs would be verbal artists.

Introverted Sensing

Sensing is introverted and often invisible. This stealth function in the third position gives INFPs a natural inclination toward absent- mindedness and other-worldliness, however, Feeling's strong people awareness provides a balancing, mitigating effect. This introverted Sensing is somewhat categorical, a subdued version of SJ sensing. In the third position, however, it is easily overridden by the stronger functions.

Extraverted Thinking

The INFP may turn to inferior extraverted Thinking for help in focusing on externals and for closure. INFPs can even masquerade in their ESTJ business suit, but not without expending considerable energy. The inferior, problematic nature of Extraverted Thinking is its lack of context and proportion. Single impersonal facts may loom large or attain higher priority than more salient principles which are all but overlooked.

don't worry, this is not really for you guys to read (if you aren't interested). its more for me to record so that i can always refer back to this post on my own personality.

well, all i can say is its scaringly accurate in most of the context.

especially those bold in orange.. left me wondering is that why i am in my current job now.. am i supposed to stay on?

i wonder.

不要用我的爱来伤害我

《不要用我的爱来伤害我》
作词:兰刚 远方
作曲:胡力 远方
歌手:韩晶

我以为你是真的爱过
所以我才认真把握
不知不觉陷入爱的旋涡
抓不住解救的绳索

我为你付出了太多太多
从没问过爱的结果
可是你一次一次的出卖我
一次一次让我难过

不要用我的爱来伤害我
你知道我是多脆弱
我做错了什么 你要惩罚我
如果这样 你还说爱我

不要用我的爱来伤害我
你的绝情无法闪躲
如果你要解脱 撕毁的承诺
请把我从前对你的爱还给我

我以为你是真的爱过
所以我才认真把握
不知不觉陷入爱的旋涡
抓不住解救的绳索

我为你付出了太多太多
从没问过爱的结果
可是你一次一次的出卖我
一次一次让我难过

不要用我的爱来伤害我
你知道我是多脆弱
我做错了什么 你要惩罚我
如果这样 你还说爱我

不要用我的爱来伤害我
你的绝情无法闪躲
如果你要解脱 撕毁的承诺
请把我从前对你的爱还给我

不要用我的爱来伤害我
你知道我是多脆弱
我做错了什么 你要惩罚我
如果这样 你还说爱我

不要用我的爱来伤害我
你的绝情无法闪躲
如果你要解脱 撕毁的承诺
请把我从前对你的爱还给我

took this outside my flat..


what a beautiful view. the world seems so serene and peaceful and beautiful at that moment.

but is this a facade from the ugliness that's happening within the photo?

the ugliness of humans, fighting under such beautiful sky?

or is everything jus as beautiful as it look?

you decide.

guys and girls can never co-exist..

its a fact..

cos whenever something goes wrong, its always the girl's fault.. ALWAYS.. its NEVER the guy's fault..

its always either the girl is:

• too sensitive
• unreasonable
• arguementative
• stubborn
• plain stupid

they always use the same reason when things go wrong:

1. this is who I am..
2. don't try to CHANGE me..
3. don't expect everyone to think the SAME way as YOU do..
4. why cant you see from MY point of view..

let's analyse each reason..

1) this is who I am
when he says that, its telling you to change for him instead.. cos this is who he is and thus, if you wanna be with him, you gotta accept the way he is.. and by doing so, you are changing yourself to suit the way he is..

2) don't try to CHANGE me
same tactic as above.. cos when they say that, he is telling you that he will never change himself to make the relatioship better.. he will NEVER compromise.. so who is to compromise? YOU.

3) don't expect everyone to think the SAME way as YOU do..
when he says that, he is saying he doesnt have the same frequency as you do, and thus, he is excused from all mistakes cos he dont think the SAME way as YOU do! so if you feel this way and therefore, hurt by his actions or words or indifference isnt HIS fault, cos he DOESNT think the SAME way as YOU do!

4) why can't you see from MY point of view
this simply means you HAVE to understand how he feels but not the other way round.. when he say that, its already saying that he doesnt see your point of view and is EXPECTING you to see HIS point of view instead.


after analysing all the above, it only comes to one conclusion: you are to change for him, not the other way round. there's no gender equality here.

he will always think that he has done his best and you are the one who isnt appreciative.. you are not understanding him, you are trying to change him, you never accept the way he is etc..

but.. he never stop and think, putting himself in your shoes, why you feel the way you did..

its always him, him, him and him..

if you open your mouth and tell your feelings, you are being argumentative.. you are picking a fight, you are unreasonable, you are not appreciative..

if you keep quiet, you are pushing him away, you do not trust him, you do not want to make the relationship better..

if you walk away, you are at fault cos you are being UNREASONABLE.. but if he were to walk away, he is not at fault cos he doesnt know how to HANDLE YOU..

when i first heard this reason, i felt disgusted.. its so obvious that there's gender bias here.

how can the same action done by different gender have 2 different judgements?

guys always say girls are cruel, especially in their words.. but they never think of their own actions..

i believe they have never heard of this phrase: actions speak louder than words.

its always the actions that hurt the girls which the guys never see..

the guys only hear the words being exchanged, but never look in the mirror and reflect on their own actions, their own words.. how their actions (including being indifferent) hurt the other party..

and the hurt done is so deep that no words can be used to describe that pain..

pain till it becomes numb..

till the girl stop feeling it and stop having reaction to it..

when that happens, the relationship is dying..

the guys never stand it when their girls talk and talk and talk about all the little things that hurt them in the relationship..

but they never realise that the reason they say it out, is cos they care about the relationship and hope that something could be done..

when they stop saying, they stop caring..

and that's the beginning of the end.

by then, it will be too late.

girls always give chances during the relationship which the guys always take for granted or sometimes, never realise they are chances.

they only start to realise when their girls stop giving chance and leave for good.

its no wonder more n more girls turn lesbian, cos girls know girls best..

of cos, there are good guys around.. but they are either married, attached, gay or jus do not have feelings for you.. *shrugs*

there's a reason why girls tend to look for uglier guys.. cos they know its their luck to be able to be with you and thus, will treasure you..

those who are a bit attractive will not.. cos they always think they can get a better one..

they fail to see what you had done for them till you are gone and no one else will ever treat them the way you did..

a friend asked, "is it better to be ugly and fat and never be loved or be pretty and slim but with your heart broken all the time?"

seriously, i have no idea. maybe its better not to be loved cos at least you wont have your hopes dashed again and again..

maybe.



P.S: its my dearest friend, tom's birthday today. couldnt make it for his celebration as i was sick. but still, shall wish him a very happy 24th birthday this year! =)