"Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice;
it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved."
- Winston Churchill

this is what i saw on my google homepage.

something for you guys to ponder upon.

is it really just a matter of choice?

or does chance matter jus as much?


PS: wanted to blog alot, but shall leave it to another day. too tired.

its a beautiful sunday and here i am, in my room, all alone, enjoying the peace of the weekend.

woke up to an empty house today; mum went to aunt's place for mahjong, sis went out (to date or work) and boy's at SIM for revision class.

felt weird at first as Sundays are the only days where the whole family is at home.

bathed and had food, then sat in my room, with the sunlight coming in through my windows, surfing net and enjoying the scene outside.

nothing much, jus blue sky, white clouds, roof of HDB flats and birds flying, no difference from everyday scene, yet today, it was quiet.

no annoying horns and engines of cars, no irritating kids shouting at each other...

ahhhhh... jus my radio playing songs..

feel so much like melbourne, the room back in Bundoora, with nothing but peace and birds chirping. =)

i guess thats what i miss most back there, the peace. nobody and nothing to disturb me, jus me, my laptop and my music. how simple.

as 6pm approaches, the sun is setting and the sky looks even more serene..

Don't Hold Back Your Love by Daryl Hall John Oates is playing in the background.. sounds so meaningful at this very moment. =)


(Page, O'Brien, Tyson)

I know what it's like to be forgotten
Left alone with your simple dreams
But even dreams are fading fast
No one to turn to when you can't sleep at night
Waking up to another day that will soon be over
And if you think that time has forgotten you
Well just look into my eyes
And know the times we'll change

[Chorus:]
Don't hold back your love
I know it's here
I wanna see it come to life before my eyes
Don't hold back your love
Show me your heart
Cause I will always be here by your side

Don't be mistaken there's still some work to do
Gotta get up every single day
Face the judge and jury
No one will notice they've got their own lives
We've got something they all want
It'll be their surprise
And if you think there is no place to run
Just hold onto my hand
And face whatever comes

[Chorus]

One more chance to find the higher ground
One more chance before the curtain's down
One more night to turn your life around again

[Chorus]

boy came back with a bouquet of mini sunflowers. what a sweet surprise. i had never seen mini sunflowers, the total replica of the huge ones, but so much smaller. its so sweet. *smiles*


life is so simple at this very moment. sweet love, peace and serene.

if only everyday is like that, with no troubles, no worries, no sadness and anger.

if only.

sorry for MIA-ing again. fell sick again. been 2 days. =(

must be all the late nights and drinking, got me dehyrated and constipated which leads to fever. =.=

jer had been nagging me to rest more which i am now (cos i don have a choice).. lol..

well, had lots of pics to upload.

as for my life, its still drinking and clubbing.. lol..

nah.. my close friend, anson came back to singapore 2 weeks back and thus, we met up..

went to visit ferris wheel (or singapore flyer) before we parted and met up again at o bar..

wait! we met at o bar as his friend's friend was having his/her birthday there! thats why! lol.

okok, i was there with my usual gang (joy & co) and pam's gang (pam & co).. lol.. well, it was a wed! xD

i din drink much that night (really!) as i wasnt feeling very well..

poor anson had to wait for me for an hour in the afternoon cos i went to see doc etc.. =X

it was great meeting him, really happy to meet him.. its (almost) always good to see old friends.. haha

his friend. from rmit too! lol.

before that, i had dinner with pam and joy and wakaru @ The Central.

pam told us to order niku udon for her and so we did. the waitress asked if we wan mini or regular size, of cos we chose regular size!

and when it came.. we were speechless:


see how huge it was?!!

apparently, their definition of mini and regular is very different from ours. =.= joy couldnt resist temptatio and got her egg with meat thingy. (forgot the name). lol


as for me, i ordered a chirashi and wakame udon set. and it came as chirashi RICE and wakame udon set. =.=


spent at least an hour there trying to finish the food and touching up our makeup.. lol..

anyway, we spent awhile there before we went to zouk with joy. the girls were busy taking pics while i was busy helping them take pics or lending them my hp to take pics. =.=

pam and phy

anson and pam

and yea, ray had the cutest specs ever!! its sooo cute! ^^ but he lost it in the sea the very next day. =.=

ray and i , with me wearing his cute cute specs. haha

alex with ray's specs. lol.

anyway, anson found one of my gf very pretty (no need to guess. i am NOT telling!).. haha..

pam, phy touching pam's boobs, kevin and jayce.

alex, pam and phy.

jayce and i


anson enjoyed himself at zouk as we all did since its more for our generation!

but he's old, cos he kept siting down towards the end of the night, claiming tired! lol

but hard to blame him as it was almost morning according to Melb's time! xD

our only grp pic that night.

thats the best night i ever had. really enjoyed myself with anson.. gotta wait till end of the year before i can see him again. =(


well, saturday went to work for phy's bf's wine cellar. we had to wear a red tank top and demin skirt with denim skirt and black boots. mum was so worried when she saw me in such an attire and kept asking what kind of job was i working for. lol.


pam and i


me, jo and pam.


grp pic.

boy boy then whispered this to me, "you wear less when you go clubbing!" lol. true true. =X

anyway, it was not bad, the working. got some allowance. haha. better than nothing. from there, i got another job opportunity! (talk about that later)



this is wat happened when u are bored. lol. pam said the pic above is her: big boobs and hips and oh, the white paper in the middle was her belly button. =X

went to dbl o to meet joy & co after that.. yes yes, it was boring. i got sick of it to.. lol.. but agreement is agreement! cant back out! besides, it was fun that night. =X

me and joy

francis and i

francis and joy

we french - kissing. haha

joy and francis's friends.

bumped into lei there (we went la kopi jus few nights before dbl o! lol)..


as usual, we have all changed but we don't feel the distance. really happy to see him. its always good to see old friends (or most of the time.. haha)..

quite fun cos got to know new pple (francis's friends).. they are all very nice.. wont try to make girls drunk or be touchy or anything.. jus purely friendly. =)

francis's friends.

good people to hang out with during clubbing..

as for the other job i was saying, it was at raffles town club, as receptionist..


pam and i

it was good money as we only had to sit there and register and eat good food. lol.

their food is really delicious! better than some hotels! ^^

after work, boy came to fetch us and we went to suntec starbucks to meet the forum pple.

and that ended my weekend.. for last last week.

as for last week, i was resting at home (and jer was proud of me!) till sat when i met up with pei to o bar. nope, we didnt drink much nor club, our motive was to chill out and catch up with our lives.

its weird going to such places without joy. i think we hang out too much with each other. lol.

as for this week, i am sick and therefore, i don think i am going out. =(

i wan to watch movies though. a healthy weekend for once maybe? =X

i must be crazy these days, clubbing non-stop! drinking so much it reminds me of the days in Melb. lol.

but its really fun with the girls. =D

met alot of pple, some which i REALLY do not wish to see, some I was ok with it.

met another scriptwriter who was sooooooooooooooo fake i wish to kick him in his balls and punch his face.

he actually saw me and my friends, yet he pretended not to see us (which was no big deal since we did not wish to see him either)..

then another friend came and say hi to us, he suddenly saw us and said hi!

and he asked the ultimate qns to this friend and i.

Scriptwriter: "hey"

Friend: "oh hi!"

Scriptwriter:" jus came?"

Friend: "yea"

Scriptwriter: "who did u come with?" (he saw Friend coming in alone).

Friend: "As usual, with myself."

Scriptwriter turned to me.

Scriptwriter: "Hey! Din see you!"

Me (fake smile): "oh hey!"

Scriptwriter: "when was u here?" (he saw me and my friends like almost 3hours ago)

Me: "About 11 plus 12." (it was already 2am then)

Scriptwriter (evil grin): "oh....... you came with him?" (pointing at Friend)

Me: "No............................... He jus reached!"

I turned away and ended the conversation.

see how far these scriptwriters will go to create gossip about your life?

stupid morons.

i bet he is calling some other scriptwriter(s) who is/are soooooooooo interested in my life and gossip. **

well, i must admire one skill of his, to continue being fake and pretend that everyone likes him when most of them dislike him. good denial skill!

anyway, some pics of my clubbing scenes the other day. =D

see how lucky pam is???? lol


the best friends that love kissing!

pam and joy.

A2 and joy.

pam and i (it wasnt supposed to be landscape but.............. =X)

A2 and pam.

the girls! =D

next, there are so many men that pissed me off these days.

they come in shapes and sizes, rich and poor, handsome and not-so-good-looking.

one of the stuff that pissed me off is getting a girl's hopes high only to break them into million pieces.

keep asking the girl to wait and wait and wait for him when he has no answers.

pouring hot and cold.

wanting to stay as friends but kept wanting to have physical contacts (not sex).

being so self-centered, only think of himself, how stressed he was etc without thinking that he wasnt the only one feeling this way.

to wait for someone isnt easy. its tough.

i am not generalizing everything, jus this particular incident.

made me think differently of the guy somehow.

next, emo guy.

always assume. never ask when in doubt (i thought only girls love to do that).

happy, be friends. not happy, pretend as strangers.

wtf.

and of cos, the same effect: pouring hot and cold. **

then.. bad guy trying to act good guy.

this kind are jus plain disgusting. pple know u are bad, yet you still pretend to be good. how fake can that be?

backstab pple, trying to break pple up.

turn around and pretend still friends with you.

backstab own friends to get their girlfriends (which usually fail as the girls really aint interested in him).

just 3 incidents, i am turned off by guys (not all of cos!).

these 3 guys, i really wish i can do something to make them see what kind of persons they really are and get them to wake up their stupid ideas.

someone showed me this quote and i find it meaningful:



hope one day we will all learn to do it this way. =)