Leave or stay

Have been in a dilemma for the past month or more.. Ain't sure on the path that I should take.. People around me have been giving me different advices and points of view..

Friends and family have noticed my increasing unhappiness and tiredness, they are worried about me. I wish I could make a decisive choice without considering so much, but I can't. I guess I am worried about making the wrong choice..

Then a friend said this to me, "At the end of the day you live for yourself. No point being miserable so other people can be happy. Do what makes you happy."

I thought about it, and she seemed to sound logical, why should I keep living for others? Especially when they do not appreciate me? For my character, I have not expected myself to tolerate such treatment for years, but I did. I guess I have been trained well, which is both good and bad. How long more can I tolerate before I break down? I do not want a nasty ending.

Perhaps, it is time to move on, and find my old self before she is lost forever.

God, please give me strength.

累了

真的好累。