when was the last time you look at stars?

last week? last month? last year? last decade?

they say each star represents an individual, do you believe that?

i do.


i looked up in the sky tonight, looking for my star but had seen none.

don get me wrong, there WERE stars tonight, but none that was mine.

and who am i to determine which star represent me?

i have no idea.

but i guess you will know when you see one that represents you. just as you will know when you meet the destined one in your life.


i used to see that star, my star; when i was in Melbourne.

every night, when i couldn't zzz, when i felt lonely, i looked up in the sky and there it was, my star shining with the others, reminding me that though i was miles away from my home, i was under the same sky as my loved ones.

sometimes, i saw more stars surrounding mine, sometimes, none.

when i came back to Singapore, the star was there still.

but tonight, i don see it.


was the sky too bright?

had the earth turned to the other side of the universe and hid my star?

or.. had my star fade away?

in scientific theory, it would mean the star had exploded, used up all the energy and thus, no longer a star.

but then, we don't want the hard sci-fi theory do we?

don't we have enough of science destroying the many beliefs we used to have?

our ancestors used to have?

why can't we give ourselves a little fantasyy?

having hopes that well, one of the stars represent us and maybe the one that is shining brightly beside ours is the one who will accompany us for the rest of our lives?

it doesn't hurt, does it?


so.. where was my star tonight?

was it lost? as lost as i was? and therefore, it couldn't find me and i couldn't see it?

when will i find my star again?

will it appear once more? or will it fade away forever?


i tried looking for it, but sadly, it never show up.

my star might be missing tonight, but when i looked up in the sky, i felt peace, though lost. i felt solitude, though not alone.

conflicting feelings. that's so human.


and what did you feel when you look up in the sky, upon the stars..?