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many times i tried to blog something but when the page loads, my mind went blank..

i had no idea what to blog about..

my daily life?

my halloween night?

my work life?

nah. all too boring.

not that nothing happened to my life these days (in fact, alot of things happened)..

just that when i had the feel to blog, i wasn't anywhere near my laptop and when i do, i couldn't rem what i was supposed to blog about..

the feeling was gone and it could not be found.. well, till the next time at least..

and now, i sit here, typing away, hoping sth will come into my mind.. .... .... ....

nth.

damn.

have i lost the touch of blogging or am i really that busy that i have no time to blog?

answer is both.

i don't seem to be able to find back those feels to blog like i used to in the past.

the job i have now is burying me alive with all the ad hoc and non- ad hoc OTs, meetings, courses and events..

not to mention most aren't claimable for off days..

with that kind of schedule, i have no time to blog.. the time i have is used for zzz and be with loved ones..

all my other time has been eaten up by work..

sucks i know.

i always tell people that work isn't everything but look at me now. its my life.

went to send my mum n sis off the other day (they went Korea. i can't go. no leave. ) and my mum told me, i looked very tired.

i say yea and she said, "唉, 你真的是勞碌命ㄚ.. 每天都那麼忙.. 能休息就休息吧~"

and i agreed. my life is labourer life. work n work n work.

i don have the life of a princess or those born with silver spoon.

what to do?

like a fren had mentioned, my life since born till now is very tough and this year will be the toughest.

life will only get better when i turn 27.

which is either in 2 months time or a years time.

we shall see.

well, it really hasn't been the best year of my life, considering all the downs that i had.

but its the downs that made me appreciate the ups and some of the downs were blessings in disguise. so i am actually glad.

the year is ending, its the time where people start reviewing the what they had done in the past year, had they meet the goals and start making new goals and targets for the new year.

i think back and i realised i have nothing to review cos i had made no targets nor goals this year.

it has been a cruise-thru year for me.

a year for me to change a life. a makeover of sort.

and i can't say i hate it cos change is the only constant.

i may not like the change but that the only constant in life, really.

with every turn comes a new opening.. with every door closed opens a new window and with all the downs, come the ups in life.

i have cried alot this year.. but i believe i have truely laughed alot this year too..

fake laughs and smiles? still exist.

but the amt of times i had really laughed or smiled increased.

so all is balanced in life.

its not so bad afterall if you look at it in a different light.

so all is good for me i guess.



how about yours?