Melancholy

Sometimes, you think back your past and wonder, if you had done it differently, would the ending be the same? If the same situation happens now, will you handle it differently?

Alot of times, we handle things the way we thought was best at the moment and this thought often depends on our maturity and age. Despite how some would argue age does not affect one's maturity, we have to admit, you only grow wiser as you age; you gain more experience as the years go by.

As such, you will handle things in a different way at different phases of your life. Things that you would had done in the past may not be the best solution now.

However, despite dealing it differently, the result may be the same. Sounds irony? That's life. This often relates to relationships among humans. I'm not only talking about boy-girl relationships, I'm also referring to friendship and more. Why so? That's because characters cannot be changed. That is what makes you different from others. There are people whom you will never be good friends with, despite how hard you try. There's also people whom you will click at first meetup. That's compatibility. There's no right or wrong, worthy or not. It's purely compatibility. Some people are never met to click.

That's the irony I'm referring to. You may have handled it differently, but the ending will be the same. People who are not compatible can never be together, be it friends or lovers. Of cos, one is more stringent when it comes to lovers, which is why some people can only be friends, not lovers. Pity but not everyone is your foe, and not everyone is your friend.

So there's no need to be too upset over loss of friendship or relationships, Co's That's life. You get upset; that's understandable, but not to the extend of wallowing. The biggest challenge in life is not to hang on, but to let go. When you have learnt to let go, you will be a happier person.  :)

Big 3 & Friends

It's been a life changing year. Or should I say, months? Things changed, for the better and worse. Physically, it's getting worse. Mentally, it's getting better.

As I reach my big 3 this year, I realised it's not as daunting as I expected it to be. I thought I would get all jittery, skeptical and dreadful about it, but I didn't. On the contrary, I am nonchalant (okay, maybe I'm only dreadful about people calling me by a different term, "a....e"). I am happy to tell people about it, nothing to be secretive about. I'm not sure if that is because I don't look like it, or I'm really embracing the fact. Either way, I'm okay with this change. :)

Mentally, I'm seeing things at a different light. I have learnt to take things in it's stride, not being stubborn over alot of things and being able to accept more than I used to. Maybe I have been through enough or rather, seen enough to know better. Maybe, I have learnt that life is too short to dwell on redundant matters. I have better things to focus on: happy stuff such as having friends. :)

I have made alot of new friends in the past year and some, I have labelled them as close friends. Of Co's, I have also realised some friendships were not strong enough against the work of time, but then again, since the friendships become distant over time, its better to end it now than later.

Recently, I bumped into someone whom I had known briefly a year ago and felt that we could click but due to some matters, we sorta lost contact. That accidental meetup was awesome as we cleared the air and realised that both were glad to be friends. I am happy that I went down that night. It was a great night that I would remember for a long time. That's friendship that will not distance due to time. Even if we were to only meet once a year. It's the thought that matters. :)

Someone told me that there will never be friends among colleagues, and I beg to differ. I have found awesome friends through work and some I know, I will always treasure and they will always cherish. Blessed maybe, I am happy now. Work sucks but with awesome friends, I can survive it (mostly).

I expect more changes to come this year, good ones. And with this android app, I believe I'll be able to pen down my journey in life more often.

I love my life. ♡

God's will?

It's funny how God show you his way, how he sets obstacles/paths to let you know that what you are doing is/isn't good for you.

If its good, you realise there's a lot of paths leading you to that goal. If it's not, you will find a lot of obstacles.

For example, you aren't supposed to go somewhere and thus, though you have found ways and means to go, and finally got to go, the place may be closed.

If you are supposed to meet a person, you may have cancelled the date which you walk aimlessly later on and suddenly, you will bump into him/her.

We often do not think much about it but if you do observe, you will realise how amazing such is. Of cos, if you only believe that fate is in your hands, what I have just mentioned is bull shit. But then again, no harm having an open heart right? :)

So is the path you are walking now meant to be?