with my busy schedule, i haven't had a chance to really meet up with friends or pamper myself..

and so, with the national day and syog over (let's not talk about the upcoming events), i have some time to browse through the internet and window-shop (i had not bought any of those seen YET!) :D

1)Iphone Casing

since i got my iphone, i had been buying lots of hp casings with my latest edition of:


but my most loved casing is still:


I still intend to buy some more, when there's new additions.. at the moment, i am putting a ban on myself for iphone casings.. cos I already have 6 iphone casings, not to mention the number of times i went to do gmask for my phone.. =X

2) Cameras

well, those who saw my fb album know that i have a thing for toy cameras (you may read abt my collection here).

well, i haven't been buying any since my last edition of:


now my hands are itching for new toy cameras again.. and i saw quite a few online yesterday.. ain't sure which one to get though cos I haven't really research on them..

so now i am going to stock up films instead for my Polaroid cameras..

intend to get these few:


gonna cost a bomb for these, which would be about $70 or more.. (-__-||)

so i am still contemplating.. may eliminate a few.. haha

other than these, i am also browsing for clothes for myself, clothes for buttons and rach, wigs etc..

haha.. yup.. i am also into wigs.. i have:

1. a long hair wig
2. a short hair wig
3. 1 choco kawaii fringe wig
4. 1 black sweet fringe wig
5. 1 hair bun..
   

well.. i love the fringe best.. cos it's easy to wear and natural.. the bun is harder to deal with, partly because my hair isn't that long and it's layered.. hard to keep it neat.. haha..

wore the fringe to Jay's concert last month, from long fringe to short:


looks natural doesn't it? the only downside was the shade..

i bought a choco shade and it was too light for my hair. Thus, i bought a second one which is black..

haven't try it though, considering i never go out for the past month.. haha..

may try it on next month when i have a chance to go out!




well.. i wonder is it due to my age or my work nature, i prefer staying at home than going out.. watching dramas, playing fb.. or just lie on bed and enjoy the silence..

still go out once in a while, still love dolling up.. but it's a different like.. this kind of like is more of an appreciation rather than .. i can't find the word for it.. play? attention?

walking along the streets, i appreciate the safe country that allows us to walk anywhere we like.. the stretch of Orchard Road with tons and tons of things to buy.. friends and family to chit chat with.. and more..

didn't really appreciate those in the past.. maybe cos i was still young, took things for granted.. but now, after i had seen the different side of the country, the efforts made to have what we have now.. i deeply appreciates it.. of cos, there's always room for improvement.. but at the moment, we ain't that bad.. don't you think so? =)

When you are in trouble, people who call to sympathize are really looking for the particulars.

~Edgar Watson Howe, Country Town Sayings, 1911

finally finished my blog layout.. after almost 2 months i guess?

unlike the last layout, my profile and links aren't shown outright.. you gotta click the 4 icons to navigate:



well, not entirely complete cos there are still things i wish to add but not sure where to.. lol..

for now, i hope this new layout doesnt look emo anymore!

Browsing through FB and saw this post by a girl friend..

to all the girls out there:

我知道妳很好，但是妳可以不必那麼偉大

by Sheron Lee

請注意，即使妳無時無刻都告訴自己「愛情是信任」，妳相信他真的有多愛妳，妳真的認為這一切都是妳想太多，妳真不應該無理取鬧。妳要尊重他，尊重他的隱 私，尊重他的前女友，尊重他的女性朋友，尊重那些莫名其妙的電話、簡訊、郵件、邀約，尊重他也擁有個人自由、憲法保障的人權、人生而平等的自由，與他所謂 的空間，那麼，我想請問妳，這位愛裝大方的女人：「當妳尊重了別人，別人有尊重過妳嗎？」

如果他真的夠尊重你，覺得妳真的夠重要，為什麼寧可要妳委屈難過猜疑不安，也不願意犧牲那些前女友、那些女人，來讓一個他口中所謂真正愛的女人覺得心安？

如果他真的夠愛妳，為什麼他寧可跟那些他口中所謂不愛、不喜歡的女人維持讓妳不舒服的關係，而不願意讓妳感覺舒服？

如果他真的覺得妳很重要，又何必浪費時間精力去維繫那些他口中所謂不那麼重要的友誼？

親愛的，我們都曾經試著當一個好女人，當一個自認為很大方的好女人，但是上帝有曾告訴過我們，身為好女人就一定上的了天堂，當一個裝大方的女人就 能永遠幸福快樂嗎？還是這個社會告訴我們，當個好女人一定有善報，只要我們願意裝大方釋出善意，那些壞女人就不會欺負我們？或者是我們的人生經驗告訴我 們，當一個好女人一定比較爽快，沒事裝裝大方就會活的比較痛快？

如果不是，那麼，請立刻清醒。

我知道，妳心地善良，心胸寬大，成熟明事理，妳覺得自己不再是小女生，不應該整天哭哭啼啼愛靠夭愛懷疑愛亂想，妳知道要有一段健康的感情，妳必須懂得信任與尊重，妳當然曉得妳的男友很愛妳，只是因為他太好，所以那些蒼蠅女人會喜歡他。

但是妳並不知道，當妳試著相信他前女友真的只把他當朋友，他們後來就真的不只是朋友。他真的只是好心體貼接送那些女生，但後來就只會更加好心體貼 接送她回來。他真的只是跟前前女友吃飯聊天，後來就一定不只是吃飯聊天。他只是收到簡訊接到電話，但後來就不只簡訊和電話。不要問我為什麼知道，學校沒有 教，報紙沒有寫，至少妳一定有聽過、看過，不然也用膝蓋想過。這樣的社會案件層不出窮，信任即使說的冠冕堂皇，它還是脆弱的不堪一擊。

妳又如何可以說服自己、委屈自己、隱藏自己，而去做一個裝大方的女人？

這些年來，感情路上走過來的感觸，我真的希望有些道理不需要浪費妳的光陰最後才明瞭。所以親愛的，請記得無時無刻正視自己的需求。如果任何一個人、一段感情必須讓妳委曲求全、漠視自己的需求、隱藏自己的不快，那麼請相信，那絕對不是妳的真愛。

我知道妳很好，但是妳可以不必那麼偉大。

妳不用做個小氣的女人，妳也不用在男人面前裝作是個大方的女人。任何一段有益身心的感情應該讓妳更愛自己，讓自己更快樂，變的更好。而不是讓你忘了自己的需要，去訂做成一個他需要的、完美的女人。

如果連妳都不尊重自己，妳還希望別人如何尊重妳？

如果連妳都不愛自己了，妳又怎麼能奢望別人能愛妳？

更重要的是，若他真的夠愛妳，

他第一個該尊重的，應該是「妳」。

(NOTE: the below post has nothing to do with my personal life.. and nope, i am not being emo when i was writing the entry.. it's just random)



sometimes i wonder.. what does it mean to be a couple? just holding hands, hang out? or is there more?

why do you want to be with a particular someone?

for companionship?

for fun?

for all the intimate things that you can do together?

or is it for love?


when you lose someone, you felt the heartache, you cried, felt empty etc etc.. is it cos you still love him/her or cos you dont wish to be the one losing?

is it because you are too used to having that particular person or because you can't stand loneliness?


how would you know?

seriously, i have no answer to that..

i used to think that people get together because of love and break up because there's no more love..

but as i grow older, i realise that's not true..

there's so much more to consider than just feelings..

there's 1001 reasons to be together and 1001 to break up..


for whatever reason, i hope it's worth it..

cos sometimes, once you lose it, you lose it forever..

so grab hold tight to the one you feel is worth fighting for..

歌曲: 梁靜茹 - 給未來的自己
专辑: 崇拜
年份: 2007
公司: 相信音乐
MV导演: 黄中平

＊ 前奏 ＊

站在狂風的天台一望無際
這一座孤獨的城市
在天空與高樓交接的盡頭
誰追尋空曠的自由

陽光覆滿這一刻寧靜的我
隔絕了喧囂和冷漠
川流不息的人遊蕩在街頭
誰能聽見誰的寂寞

找一個人惺惺相惜 找一顆心心心相印
在這個宇宙 我是獨一無二 沒人能取代

不管怎樣 怎樣都會受傷
傷了又怎樣 至少我很堅強 我很坦蕩

間奏

夜幕籠罩燦爛的一片燈海
多少人多少種無奈
在星光裡遺忘昨天的傷害
一覺醒來還有期待

我不放棄愛的勇氣 我不懷疑會有真心
我要握住 一個最美的夢 給未來的自己

一天一天 一天推翻一天 堅持的信仰
我會記住自己今天的模樣

有一個人惺惺相惜 有一顆心心心相印
拋開過去 我想認真去追尋 未來的自己
不管怎樣 怎樣都會受傷
傷了又怎樣 至少我很堅強 我很坦蕩

間奏

我不放棄愛的勇氣 我不懷疑會有真心
我要握住 一個最美的夢 給未來的自己
不管怎樣 怎樣都會受傷
傷了又怎樣 至少我很堅強 我很坦蕩

未來的你 會懂我的瘋狂

所以，我亲爱的朋友，不要放弃爱情。。

layout is almost done.. now left is the javascript-ing.. lol

decided.. tonight, i shall start on my new blog layout!

jia you angela! :D

its time to change my layout..

gonna need a few days to get inspiration and start doing..

my current layout (which is one of my fav layouts that i had done) is too grey.. giving people an impression that this is an emo blog (which it isnt cos blogging about inner thoughts do not mean emo.. just that i don't have the habit of blogging about what i eat, where i went etc etc.. *rolleyes*) and its starting to irk me..

i don't understand why blogging about thoughts or questions would be emo.. cos my blog entries are random and often do not link to me (how many times must i repeat that??)..

but somehow, people just link them to me..

maybe some people love to have their lives drama-like but i dont..

=.=

my next layout will most probably be of many colors or at least white background..

let's wait and see.. *winks*

i really love the song playing in my blog.. 情歌 by Fish Leong.. which means love song..

the tune and melody makes you sad.. but not heartbroken sadness..

it's more of a pity sadness.. that a relationship ended (for whatever reason)..

that a relationship had ended but you will always remember the fond memories between you and him/her..

sometimes.. a relationship ends not cos there's no more love.. but cos, love is the only thing that's left in the relationship..

and as cliché as it may sound, sometimes love just ain't enough.. it's true and you can't deny it (for those who had been through heartbreaks for all reasons but no love..


it's sad.. cos there's nothing you can do.. there's nothing love can do to salvage the relationship..

sad cos you were so happy then.. both of you..

but things change.. everything change except the love.. and love itself can't sustain the relationship..

and when i say everything, it's really everything.. like trust, security, everything..

it comes to a point where love for each other brings nothing but sadness, unhappiness, hurt..

and the only way to make each other happy is to leave..

a painful but only viable solution (in most cases)..



i believe most who read my blog understand this..

(cos well, young people will find my blog boring.. lol)

the kind of beyond-your-control feeling..

the kind of struggle..

you don't wish to end, but there's nothing much you can do..

cos you don't wish to make each other suffer anymore..



its sad.. and whenever you look back at those memories, this sadness will follow..

a beautiful start without a beautiful end..


guess that's part of life..

there can't be gardens with beautiful flowers and butterflies..

even the day has to give way to night and spring to winter..

so is happiness to sadness..


but such sadness will come with a smile while tears flow down..

contradicting emotions.. just like most big decisions in our lives.. *smiles*



found the English and Hanyu Pinyin translation for this song.. change a bit of the English translation though (cos it sounds weird)..

Credits to:　xoxoxobexoxoxo from



Artist: 梁靜茹 Liang Jing Ru
Fish Leong

Song: 情歌 Qing Ge
Love Song



時光是琥珀
shi guang shi hu po
Time is drops of tears

淚一滴滴
lei yi di di
being locked

被反鎖
bei fan suo
in an amber.

情書再不朽
qing shu zai bu xiu
No matter how immortal the love letters are,

也磨成沙漏
ye mo cheng sha luo
it'll still grinded into sand, leaking away.

青春的上游
qing chun de shang you
On the top of youthfulness,

白雲飛走
bai yun fei zou
white clouds are flying pass

蒼狗與海鷗
cang gou yu hai ou
turning into dogs and seagulls.

閃過的念頭
shan guo de nian tou
These flashy thoughts

潺潺的溜走
chan chan de liu zou
are slipping away.

命運好幽默
ming yun hao you mo
Fate is very humorous,

讓愛的人都沉默
rang ai de ren dou chen mo
It makes people in love silent

一整個宇宙
yi zheng ge yu zhou
(and) willing to trade in the universe

換一顆紅豆
huan yi ke hong dou
for a red bean.

回憶如困獸
hui yi ru kun shou
Memories is like a monster

寂寞太久
ji mo tai jiu
that'll eventually became gentle

而漸漸溫柔
er jian jian wen rou
from being lonely for a long time.

放開了拳頭
fang kai le quan tou
Letting go of (it's) fist,

反而更自由
fan er geng zi you
(it feels) much freer.

慢動作
man dong zuo
In slow motion

繾綣膠捲
qian juan jiao juan
attracting,

重播默片
chong bo mo pian
(and) replaying the silent film,

定格一瞬間
ding ge yi shun jian
(I've) stopped for a moment.

我們在告別的演唱會
wo men zai gao bie de yan chang hui
In our farewell concert,

說好不再見
shuo hao bu zai jian
(we've) promised not to meet again.

你寫給我
ni xie gei wo
You wrote me

我的第一首歌
wo de di yi shou ge
my first song.

你和我十指緊扣
ni he wo shi zhi jin kou
You and I were hand in hand
默寫前奏 mo xie qian zou
(and) writing the prelude from (our) memory.

可是那然後呢
ke shi na ran hou ne
But what then?

還好我有
hai hao wo you
At least I still have

我這一首情歌
wo zhe yi shou qing ge
this love song.

輕輕的 輕輕哼著
qing qing de qing qing heng zhe
Lightly humming,
哭著笑著 我的
ku zhe xiao zhe wo de
crying and smiling at my

天長地久
tian chang di jiu
eternity.

命運好幽默
ming yun hao you mo
Fate is very humorous,

讓愛的人都沉默
rang ai de ren dou chen mo
It makes people in love silent

一整個宇宙
yi zheng ge yu zhou
(and) willing to trade in the universe

換一顆紅豆
huan yi ke hong dou
for a red bean.

回憶如困獸
hui yi ru kun shou
Memories is like a monster

寂寞太久
ji mo tai jiu
that'll eventually became gentle

而漸漸溫柔
er jian jian wen rou
from being lonely for a long time.

放開了拳頭
fang kai le quan tou
Letting go of (it's) fist,

反而更自由
fan er geng zi you
(it feels) much freer.

長鏡頭
chang jin tou
The long camera shot

越拉越遠
yue la yue yuan
is pulling further and further,

越來越遠
yue lai yue yuan
further and further.

事隔好幾年
shi ge hao ji nian
After a couple years from this,

我們在
wo men zai
we are at

懷念的演唱會
huai nian de yan chang hui
(our) memorable concert

禮貌的吻別
li mao de wen bie
politely kissing good bye.

你寫給我
ni xie gei wo
You wrote me

我的第一首歌
wo de di yi shou ge
my first song.

你和我十指緊扣
ni he wo shi zhi jin kou
You and I were hand in hand

默寫前奏
mo xie qian zou
(and) writing the prelude from (our) memory.

可是那然後呢
ke shi na ran hou ne
But what then?

還好我有
hai hao wo you
At least I still have

我這一首情歌
wo zhe yi shou qing ge
this love song

輕輕的 輕輕哼著
qing qing de qing qing heng zhe
Lightly humming,

哭著笑著 我的
ku zhe xiao zhe wo de
crying and smiling at my

天長地久
tian chang di jiu
eternity.

陪我唱歌
pei wo chang ge
Sing with me

清唱你的情歌
qing chang ni de qing ge
Sing acapella to your love song

捨不得 短短副歌
she bu de duan duan fu ge
(I) don't want the short chorus to end.

心還熱著
xin hai re zhe
My heart is still hot,

也該告一段落
ye gai gao yi duan luo
but it should come to an end.

還好我有
hai hao wo you
At least I still have

我下一首情歌
wo xia yi shou qing ge
my next love song.

生命宛如 靜靜的
sheng ming wan ru jing jing de
Life is like a calm river

相擁的河 永遠
xiang yong de he yong yuan
embracing each other for

天長地久
tian chang di jiu
eternity.

went to work at a familiar area.. and i told my colleague that i dislike that area.. cos people who had hurt me live there.. not only one, but several..

and she said, next time, when i make friends or get husband, make sure they don live in that area..

cos it apparently is a cursed place ffor me..

haha..

nice theory..

that area was when i first had my heart taken away.. got my heart broken, trust betrayed.. most of my first were there..

i rem when i cried very badly when i was told that my love (then) was moving to that area..

crying hysterically, confirmed that our relationship would be affected once he moved there.. he would break my heart..

and i rem he looking at me, assuring me it's just a place.. and things would not change..

sweet him, as always..

i guessed he must be thinking i was a silly girl then, crying so badly over an area..

haha..

but we split up less than a year after he moved..

*shrugs*



its funny how some things affect you in a way where there's no explanation and no one could understand..

like my gf, she doesnt take beef, not cos of religion but rather cos she is very sure that eating beef gives her bad luck..

and it had proven right every time..

is it in the mind or ?

i dono cos i myself have weird belief too (as mentioned above)..



of cos, rational thinking would tell you it's all coincidence..

but there's so many things on earth that have no explanation..

how can one be sure that it's just coincidence?


i dono, i'd rather not take the risk..

how about you?

through out the years of your life, which is the most fond memory?

attended a 2-day course on Enhancing Intellectual, Emotional & Social Wellness for Successful Life & Work @ Civil Service College by Richard Lim, a psychotherapist..

It was intersting and very relevant.. I learnt that guys aren't that emotional due to the emotional part of the brain (center part) aren't activated.. and therefore, they are usually incapable to reading emotions on other people.. so it aint that they are insensitive but rather, their brain couldnt read the emotions written on the face..

of cos, this is a generalisation.. since over the centuries, there had been countless evolutions and nowadays, there are alot of SNAGs..

anyway.. another thing i learnt was this: Six Key Principles of Emotional Wellness

Principle 1: Emotional is Information

Principle 2: Ignoring Emotions doesn't work

Suppressing emotions may end up making us less capable of remembering information.

It seems that emotional suppression takes energy and attention that otherwise could be used in listening to and processing information.

Principle 3: Hiding emotions is seldom successful

Surface acting and emotional labour have been linked to performance burnout and job turnover.

For instance, expression of joy is often deemed not professional in organisations and this can actually hinder encouragement to reproduce success.

Principle 4: Decisions must incorporate emotion to be effective

No decisions are made without emotion.

Rational thinking cannot occur in the absence of emotion.

Principle 5: Emotions follow logical patterns

Emotions emerge for many reasons and each emotion is part of a sequence from low to high intensity.

Principle 6: Emotional universals exist, but so do specifics

The specifics are:

• Emotional Display Rules
• Secondary Emotions
• Gender & Emotions

and how emotions influence our thinking:



it's really informative.. and i love this quote mentioned:

Our life is what our thoughts make it.


we have to take control of our thoughts and not the other way round cos if our thoughts control us, we may be swarmed by negative and distorted thoughts and it can cause alot of suffering in our lives.

we gotta learn to be positive..

learn that it's not the situations that made us negative.. its our reactions to the situtations..

one situation but different solutions, depending on our reactions and beliefs..

we can't control situations, but we can control our reactions.

there have been numerous research over the years proving that people with a positive mind recover faster from illness..

and we humans aren't meant to be alone.. we are wired for relationships..

positive relationships will enhance our wellbeing and health (physical and mental)..

most importantly, we need to accept that everyone is different..

so keep an open mind, and life will be better in the long run.. =)

someone told me i am an emo person when we were chatting regarding my fb comments.. and i said, "no, my quotes are random.." and he replied, "not from your fb, but from your blog.."

i retailated saying my posts were random too.. but his reply was, "but you blogged about it cos you thought about it.."

hmmmm.. interesting theory.. yes, my entries were due to me thinking of the topic and wrote them down.. my thoughts, my views about certain stuff that had happened to me or my friends or just random news..

by thinking of certain matters, does it make a person an emo person?

i admit, i used to be an emo person.. didn't help when i was young and i had quite a lot of friends with the same dramatic genes in them.. lol..

well, i believe 90% of the population were in that catergory once (emo).. but to what extent? suicide? drink drank drunk every other night? dramatic status on fb/twitter? gothic makeup? tearing every minute?

a bit of emo-ness is good (imo).. one can't be positive and laughing all the time.. whether you choose to reveal that side of yours to your friends, everyone or just your little puppy, it's good to show.. to let that part of emotions out..

think and be negative.. just for a little while.. dramatic.. for tiny winy bit.. doesn't hurt.. afterall, life is so boring.. without such ups and downs, what will life be? monotonous living like zombie?

of cos, i am not saying to be emo and dramatic ALL the time.. it pisses people off and its such a turn off to be forever emo-ing and dramatic.. like watching Korean soap opera.. =.=

i think alot.. i really do.. when i have some quiet time.. i will think of things.. of life in general.. love.. friends.. family.. goal in life.. work.. etc..

thinking makes me achieve different perspectives of matters and thus, able to 'see' more.. of cos, i won't think and start being emo and cry and all that stunts..

i have passed that stage..

though i do miss that stage, no cos i love being emo, but i love being young.. where you do things without thinking much of the consequences.. with a care in the world.. smiling and crying at the same time.. doing stupid stuff with your friends.. =)

don't you miss that?

we have grown older and wiser but with that, we lost our innocence and naive-ness..

was browsing fb on my iphone when i got a notification that i had a message..

went in and saw this msg:


first he ask a random girl to sms him to tell him abt her.. and not ask her to reply his fb..

then he said he did not have a comp at home, he was using office comp..

which well, is one in a million chance of a person not having a comp at home..

then, i went to click on his profile (obviously kapoh) and saw this:


so he is attached.. yet he go msg girls with such things.. i bet he didn't just msg me but a whole bunch of others too..

and then.. i went to click on his gf's profile and guess what i saw? a weird status update:


so based on my assumption, his gf's status was about the bf.. and my guess is, this guy changed his password so that he can go around msging girls without the worry of getting found out by the gf..

what an asshole.

this is what pissed me off. usually, i would jus click on the profile, browse through to satisfy my curiosity and that's it, end of story.

(nope, i NEVER reply to such msgs in fb)

but this guy's behaviour turned me off. he is obviously cheating on his gf.

some may argue saying, it's jus a msg. well, for me, it's cheating, one way or another. if any of the girls replied him and flirted with him, it's only a matter of time before he two/three-time his gf.

fucker.

*rolleyes*

i actually had the thought of msging his gf but decided against it. i don't want to be responsible for their breakup.

so be careful if your partner refuses to let you have his/her pw. something is not right.

i am very into cameras.. and since last year, i fell in love with toy cameras and polariods.. love them to bits..

alot of people wanna buy DSLRs.. for their high resolutions and quality.. for me, i love the randomness of toy cameras, the vintage touch they have on photos.. and the familiar feeling of buying films and developing them..

when i first stepped into the shop, i was immediately attracted to the cameras displayed.. and since then, i had been buying a camera almost once every 2 months or so..

however, people who knows me well, knows that i like limited edition stuff.. and thus, i have been looking for limited edition cameras..

or in some color that isn't that common.. haha..

i am trying to set up a photo blog for my camera buys (which is similar to my fb album of Camera Buys ♥ )

and maybe photos taken by the various cameras i have.. :D

i am too busy though, no time to even blog.. thus, its gonna be a long wait for my photo blog to be up..

anyway, let me list out the cameras i have now from the very first.........................

Instax Mini 7s - white (limited edition) ♥
got it with cherrie's help when she went to Japan..

GoldenHalf - Red trees (limited edition) ♥
bought it in Singapore.. wanted to get the original for this cos i like the design but it was out of stock.. but this is just as pretty..

photo taken by golden half..

BlackBirdFly - Last Decade (Limited edition) ♥
bought it in Singapore.. wanted to get orange but fell in love with this hot pink edition instead..

this is how the photo will look like.. :D

anyway, i intend to buy the full series of this cameras.. all the different colors.. ♥

Gakkenflex ♥
i happened to go to the shop to browse for camera bags i think and saw this camera..



its in a box like this:


and what i had to do is to put all the parts together and ta da! my toy camera is done! damn vintage and a great sense of satisfaction! ♥

Polaroid One Step Land Camera x 2 ♥
this was a gift from Rach's bf's mum when I went to visit them in Melbourne last November.. It was such a pleasant surprise.. his mum was a camera fan too.. polariod fan to be exact and she loves taking pics..

cant forget how her eyes lit up when she saw my collection of cameras then.. :D

Instax Mini 25 Cheki Hello Kitty Camera ♥
latest buy.. with help of another friend who went to Japan last month.. I had other cameras for her to help me buy but she only managed to find this cos the other was very difficult to find.. well, i will probably buy that in Singapore then..

anyway, i am not a fan of Hello Kitty but I like the colour mix of white and red for this camera.. they have a white color edition but I already had one white polariod camera so its kinda pointless to get another full white instax camera..

but i love white.. haha.. and when i saw this edition, i fell in love with it (of cos, i would prefer if they had Mickey Mouse edition!).. and decided to get this together with its Hello Kitty films.. lol

with Hello Kitty films.. both Instax Mini 7s and 25 will have photos in this size.. =D

well, this are the cameras i had so far.. i still have a lot more on my wishlist which i will get it sooner or later! :D

only pity is i have been so busy, i din have time to full utilize my cameras.. gotta find time soon!

sometimes i wonder.. do years really mean anything?

does a person who you have known for 5 years better than a friend you have known for 5 months?

these days, i have seen and heard of people being "betrayed" by their friends, long years of friendships, more than a decade.

disappointments, anger, disgust.. most of all, self-reprimanding..

they felt confused, lost.. why did they once trust those friends so deeply?

why is it that those friends weren't the friends he/she knew a decade ago?


was it his/her fault?


nope. it's not.

this is life.

people change. change is the only constant.

and with the change of environment, people around, it's not that hard to change.


a person's real personality may not surface for the first 20 years of his/her life due to family, school, education..

but once a person goes to work, starts going out, explore, more temptations and 'tests' will show a person's true character, be it good or bad.


as one grows older, he/she will experience more feelings, negative feelings mostly.

jealousy, hatred, dislike etc..

in turn, this may turn a nice and kind person into a jealous and scheming asshole.


can we really blame them for being who and what they are?


maybe to them, we are flawed too cos in their eyes, what they do is right and justifiable.

not everyone views friendship in the same way.


some people view friendships as rare jewels, some treat them as tools, others view them as dispensable objects..


everyone is different.


at least, you get to know that they aren't the type of friends you wanna be with now..

its definitely better than knowing that in like another 20-30 years' time isn't it? =)


or maybe, the end of a friendship will allow the other party to realise your importance?

it may also starts a new life separately, a more fulfiling life that you never had when with the old bunch of friends?


these are all the positive thoughts that one can have when meet with such .. experience..



and always remember, even though the friendship ended, the person might not be who you thought was, this person or this group of people had brought you joy once, and that's all you need to remember..


everyone has a book of memories.. you wouldnt want to fill them up with bad chapters, burnt edges or smudged pages all the time would you? =)


so to my friends who are going through the loss of a long term friendship, don't blame yourself or the other party..

it's life.

without the downs, you won't appreciate the ups.

without this end, you may never get to appreciate the start. =)

"Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of others. Be original."

always rem that because it's always better to be hated for what you are than loved for what you aren't. =)

ps: jus a random post of mine~

People always say, "Words mean nothing with no actions to prove them .."

But there's also saying that "Words hurt as much, if not more than, actions.."

Both true to me.

In fact, I believe the second saying is the effect of the first.. Because the first saying, people have the mindset that words can't hurt.. And therefore, become insensitive to what they say.. Underestimate the power of words.. 

No matter how much you try, you get affected by words.. It's the words that affect your mood, your confidence.. 

Words kill.. Look at the numbers of death due to words.. Chinese has this saying, "人言可畏 " 

Words can hurt, it can kill a person, literally at times.. 

Just as words can heal a person.. Boost one's confidence.. 

Don underestimate the power of words my dear..

Use them to heal, not hurt.. 

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